WaturMama, thinking of you and your stickystickysticky little one, both of you resting beautifully and preparing for a long, beautiful, healthy pregnancy.
Karalina, what kind of Dr. are you seeing in Santa Cruz and what is a muscle test? I'm intrigued! I just really love your image of the circle of life. I'm feeling that, too. What a beautiful, life-affirming way to think of it. But ohhhhh, I'm so so sorry that you had a sad mama's day. Here's a hug for you ((( hug ))). I'm sorry that your DH was thinking vasectomy and that you're feeling some disconnect around that. I do think (as I believe Gumblossom said) that we can sometimes let the universe take care of these things. I hope the universe will bring you what you need without your having to worry about other people's desires.
Stealthee, I'm feeling the love, too! So glad to be sharing this journey with you and all the other mamas here, too.
Gumblossom, your TCM person sounds amazingly supportive! What a gift. For what it's worth, your strategy doesn't sound deceitful to me. I imagine if your DH felt the need to keep tabs on your cycle, he would ask. Perhaps this is his way of allowing the universe to bring what is brings?
SpiralChrissy, oh gosh, I'm sorry about your birthday! What a bummer. (I like Kristin's family tradition of spreading it out so there's less pressure on that one day... it reminds me of a time when I was young and far from home and homesick on Thanksgiving and I called my dad in tears and he said, "it's just Thursday, honey.") I'm sorry you and your DH are not connecting about this right now. It sounds promising that he was willing to negotiate about this with you previously... I wonder if you should shelf the contract for a bit and just work on listening very heartfully to one another? I hope you find you way toward one another in whatever way is right for you. And... Happy Birthday!!!
StarGirl, I'm sorry your RE experience was disappointing. It sounds like you were pretty prepared for it, though (glad you can put the statistics in context!). As for nudging you toward IVF and ED, this could have a lot more to do with this clinic trying to uphold their pregnancy stats than it does with any assessment of your individual case. You are only 41! I agree with Kristin that the reason for your confusing cycle could be a late ovulation. That's happened to me.
I had kind of a sad mother's day, too. My own mama is having some health problems that are concerning to me, and I also learned on mother's day that a young (30's) family friend has an extremely rare, very aggressive cancer. It threw me into a tailspin of grief and I spent the evening in tears (hiding them from my DD of course) and didn't sleep last night. It does provide some instant perspective... I feel so lucky to have my DH and my DD and to have the amazing gift of life as a human on this beautiful planet, however long it lasts. Last night all of my senses were filled with the intoxicating delicious scent, touch, sight of my dear ones, here with me for now and I hope for a long time. Of course all of this makes me long even more deeply for a babe!
Other than that, I'm cd9 I think, and preparing for the BD-athon...
Love to you all!
Edited by LitMama - 5/9/11 at 10:32pm