My DD is almost 8 years old. She was born on July 1, 2003 via "emergency" C-section.
Allegedly, she was breech, but somehow, a portion of her ear was cut during the surgery. Then she was put on a CPAP for slow breathing, and a hole was ruptured in her lung.
To say that our experience was traumatic, is an understatement.
But it was almost 8 years ago.
Now I am pregnant again after 7 miscarriages, and holding on to this little one. So here's the crux of the situation...
How do I "get over" what happened with my daughter to trust in a hospital birth, since I can't find a midwife who will take a diabetic patient, and I'm not sure I'm ready for an unassisted birth.
So how am I to "forgive and forget" what they did to my daughter in the case that I have to have another hospital birth with this baby?
If this isn't the best place for this, please let me know, and I'll delete it.