I think what is keeping me from testing is I like the feeling that I could be pregnant. Like it is my little secret. If I test and it is negative, then I feel deflated and sad, no more possibility, just a no. So I keep reminding myself that not testing means if I did test it could be positive. Of course, I could test and it could be positive, but more often than not (obviously, since 6 mos later I'm clearly not pregnant), it is negative. So... Sunday it is. Unless this light brown CM turns into full brown or red spotting (indicative of AF), in which case, I will wait until Tuesday, the day after AF is due.
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I'll tell ya though, the package of internet cheapies and the 2 EPT's I have waiting... realllllllly calling my name. I still have to pee a lot (a symptom that only lasted 8-9DPO last month) and my boobs feel larger and are sore more all around than my usual just on top (I have fibroscystic tissue), I noticed going to bed last night that I always fall asleep on my stomach and they felt uncomfortable enough that I rolled on my side. I took an hour nap today & woke up nauseaus (but isn't it the worst that the times you squeeze in a good- well needed nap, you wake up feeling like you were hit by a train?). I hate admitting these things knowing there is a possibility its all a farce and having to look back to see how delusional I was after AF shows. Ohhh the 2ww, a necessary evil!!!!