I started homeschooling DD last year when she was 5 for K. I was a full time student but did not work. We got behind the curriculum's time line and were going to catch up during the summer, but I felt that she really already knew the material and it was more a review so I just stopped where we were and had the summer free.
Then we started 1st grade in the fall. I was still a student last semester and graduated in Dec. Now I work full time (36+) hours a week. I've been on days during orientation, but I just switched to nights a few weeks ago.
We are behind the curriculum again (and have been since before Christmas). I cannot seem to find a consistent routine. For one thing, my schedule changes week to week. Another thing is that we frequently take trips to visit family over the weekends (they live 1 1/2 hours away). So many times if I'm off we're not at home.
I'm also having trouble actually teaching DD. I don't know what I expected. Well, I think I expected to be able to mostly hand her worksheets and her to just "get it". She's a bright child, and for a while this worked well. But now the math is getting a little more advanced (nothing major - it's just 1st grade), and she's not seeming to get it anymore. And now I'm wondering if I should have been doing more in depth stuff from the beginning in order to give her a more solid foundation.
She's reading really well and likes to write. Her spelling is going well. Her math is OK except she wants you to sit there and tell her how to do every problem. If you don't, she can make one worksheet drag on for 2 hours. Science and social studies are very basic right now so it's basically making time to go to the library to check out science books (there is a theme each week but no book) and go over her character building card. Religion is also pretty basic and not a problem. Actually, I think math is the main problem. Math and just finding time to do the work. Oh, and her handwriting is awful. It's bad even on the practice pages. I give her more practice pages and that looks bad, too. Not sure what to do about that as it seems like it's less of a teachable thing.
Anyway, I just feel like I'm failing her. I excelled in school (honors, AP, very high ranking) so it's not that I feel inadequate with the material. I just feel inadequate as a teacher. I don't feel like I'm reaching her (particularly in math) in a way where it clicks in her head. And I am apparently a terrible time manager.
One more thing - before DD got to school age DH and I agreed that we didn't want her in school. But ever since it's been time to actually HS her, he has not been very supportive. If he's home with them and I leave stuff out for her, he'll only do half (if any) of it with her. He makes comments sometimes that lead me to believe he's just been waiting for me to fail. And he no longer seems to be on board with HS anyway. (rant Actually he's p*ssing me off right now about other issues so that's probably tainting what I'm saying. I'm so tired of him acting like these children aren't partly his responsibility. /rant)
Yesterday I was convinced I'd somehow wrap up 1st grade and put her in school next year. Today I'm not as confident in that decision. Any words of wisdom? Or does it sound like I should put her in?