Bitter Sushi Ladies, May 2011 - Page 2

[enigo]

Originally Posted by objet_trouve 

Thanks Kinza!

I'm confused. I took a second test, and there was a real clear line after about five or six minutes (the website on the wrapper said read after five minutes). http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z203/lofnmusic/DSC00870.jpg

But then after I took that picture, about 30 seconds to a minute later, the line was completely gone (except I still think I see something real faint, but I'm really really unsure).
http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z203/lofnmusic/DSC00872.jpg

I'm pissed and have no clue what to think about this. I can't say I'd ever really heard of a line disappearing after a minute. I was all excited, now I'm completely bewildered. Don't think I'll be using these strips again.

OK so I would have totally said that was a positive in the first one. Why the hell would it disappear!? No wonder you're stressed! I'm stressed for you!

[objet_trouve]

I was actually just saying either I'm pregnant with the reincarnation of Harry Houdini, or I've done something to anger the HPT fairy. I'm starting to calm down a little bit though, I got a book in the mail today that's helping me take my mind off of it (everyone was very right in telling me to get Taking Charge of your Fertility. It's pretty awesome so far).

I googled disappearing positives (with like a million different wordings), and I'm only finding people who say theirs disappeared after several hours, and one girl freaking out about it disappearing after two weeks. Still can't find anyone with this particular issue.

[MaerynPearl]

That "line" on the first one is just the dye moving across the test... which explains why it disappears.

I had a ton of those in the 2 years I waited for my daughter to join us.

[objet_trouve]

@Pearl: that was my thought, but I saw the dye moving through while I was waiting for the five minutes to be up, the line was like that for almost a minute after the test was supposed to be finished working, and then went away. You're most likely still right, which is why I don't think I want to use this brand anymore. And at any rate, my charting sites say it's still probably just a bit too early to know for sure, and I still think I see a line in the pics of the first test, so we'll see how it goes. My fingers are still going to be crossed though!

[monkeyscience]

Okay, the great BSL list clean-up is complete! I deleted anyone that hasn't posted from November on. Also, I found 3 BFPs! So I added those ladies to the BFP list. Yes, I am a talented little stalker.

If I deleted anyone who shouldn't have been deleted, or who wants to stay on the list but mostly just lurks, please let me know! I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings!!

Also, for future threadkeeper reference, I do have a list of those whose last post was in November so we can take their names off if they don't post this month. Again, definitely not trying to kick people out, just trying to keep the list manageable!

[lilmom]

Kyamo- I agree! I hate when I hear people say the word raped like that so lightly! Or even killed, as in "he killed it when he played his guitar" or whatever..I just think there should be a level of respect for humanity that doesn't seem to be present in alot of people!  I would tell you what she said, but honestly, it was so bad, I just think it would be really insensitive to repeat in this venue, where we all are really hoping for sweet babies asap!

Smiles- You could have a cyst! Was this a sharp,stabbing pain? I had a very large, very serious ovarian cyst removed when I was 15. I hadn't had a period for a couple of months before, but since I had never had regular cycles, I didn't think that was a big deal at the time. Then I started having pain, which progressed to the point that I had to go to the ER and they did an emergency surgery. If you keep having pain, please get it checked out. A sonogram will do it. Very easy. But surgery is not so easy!!! Especially the kind where you are rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night like I was!! Not to scare you, but that definitely is a possiblity. I can't believe they want you to wait until June anyway. Very frustrating!

SweetBee- That is so disappointing about your garden!!!! I am soooo sorry! I think you still should at least try to fight it. I am sorry to hear that you are feeling so incompatible with your location too. I really, really feel your pain on that. I absolutely hate the town we are in right now. I pretty much hate everything about it. And it's so hard not knowing when DH will ever find a good job anywhere else. The economy just stinks right now. Blah! If we were closer, we could have some tea together and some yummy cookies or something, and commiserate.

O_T- I think this might be your time!!!!!!!!  Just the fact that you are so many DPO is an excellent sign to me. Your test was definitely confusing. Maybe wait another day or two. Hoping for you though. Also, glad to hear your experience at the play wasn't quite as harrowing as it could have been. Really, I would try not to be superstressed over the kids, or the lady asking you to not be a stranger. Like you said, I'm sure she meant no harm. And kids will form their own opinions of people, in my experience, if they are bright kids, despite what their parents may be saying. Kids can be wonderful judges of character. So, if they love you, they just love you. Back to your test though..I have never had a HPT do that. Maybe the ferning microscope will help??? Good luck!

LTB- meant to say to you before that I am sorry you are still having such a hard time. Praying for you, and hoping that something great will happen. I felt so sad when I read that you are crying in church every Sunday! I probably would be too though. I have a hard time at church or anywhere there are lots of little babies. I get exactly what you mean about wishing sometimes that you didn't just love them so much. I have thought that same thing...and I have also asked myself the question, Why, if I am only meant to have one child, did God make me so that I absolutely adore little ones and desire a whole houseful of children? Especially if I can't afford to adopt more?  The only thing I've known I always wanted to do for sure was be a mom. I remember the teachers pressing me at school when they would say, "What do you want to be when you grow up?" and my answer was always "mommy" or "mama" or "mother" depending how old I was..and people would say "You have to do more than just that" and I would say "Why? It's what I want to do."  I still feel the same way. It's my calling. And I believe that is true, even if DS is my only child. But I still love those babies!!!!

Sorry if I forgot anyone..hugging everybody right now. Come on rcr and OT!!!

[Milk8shake]

Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee 
 The reason we picked the place was for the garden that we are now not getting. They are liars and it just makes me want to cry. So now we are paying a fortune (no one who is not a millionaire can afford a house here, and renting just an apartment is even expensive ) for a garden apartment without garden where people will soon be running through. I want to scream!

Can I just say that I totally feel your pain.  We moved into a brand new house (never been lived in), and the roof had a massive leak and destroyed our mattress.  I've been waiting and waiting for something to be done about it, and nothing is happened.  Yesterday DP and I issued them with a letter of demand, threatening legal action if they don't pay up.  Now they are pissed!  I'm sure they will make things even more difficult - but what can you do?
 

Originally Posted by Kyamo 

Seriously?  Whatever someone's feelings on the topic, I can't believe anyone would ever feel that was an appropriate thing to joke about.  Then again, there are people making horrible jokes about rape and suicide, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised.  I HATE how "I raped him" is a common and accepted phrase meaning "I defeated him by a large margin" in gaming.  I hear it all the time and it makes me really angry.   

There are some pretty sick people out there.

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Originally Posted by monkeyscience 

Yeah, you're definitely not alone with that. While there are situations where I can understand it, it still gets to me. I don't get joking about it at all, ever. Honestly, I have a really hard time with people who go through fertility treatments and then terminate because it's multiples, or because the baby is Downs or something. I really struggle with the "I want a baby, but not this baby." I think it's different if it's a lethal condition, but... well, I guess I shouldn't get any further into this here. Just put me in the "really hard time" camp.

I really agree with the bold part. It's a really tricky subject, and there are lots of factors, of course.  My main issue is with people who basically use it as a form of birth control.  In my opinion, if you do the deed, then you accept the potential consequences of it.  One thing that definitely scares me, is the thought of conceiving multiples.  Twins are in my family, and I always used to hope that I would have twins.  I know now that my uterus would make having any multiples incredibly risky for me and the babies.  Another lady I "know" online who has the same condition, went through selective reduction.  To me, that is a horrific choice to have to make.

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Originally Posted by objet_trouve 

I can't decide when to test again yet. I'm 16DPO right now, fertilityfriend wants me to wait till 18 DPO, but I'm so anxious and impatient about this, I really want to test tomorrow morning during the first urine. What I might do is use up the last two of these weird strips I was given with my new ferning microscope (which with any luck will be a complete waste of my mother's money lol) tomorrow, and then wait until 18dpo to take a better HPT. Or if I get really solid positives tomorrow, perhaps I can see about getting a blood test done at the doctor's office at 18dpo. Here's hoping!

Oh man... I really hope that this is it for you.  I don't think I'd be getting my hopes up though.  I think the tests might be a little unreliable.
 

Originally Posted by monkeyscience 

Okay, the great BSL list clean-up is complete! I deleted anyone that hasn't posted from November on. Also, I found 3 BFPs! So I added those ladies to the BFP list. Yes, I am a talented little stalker.

Great job... looks great.  Thanks for updating my blurb, it's okay for now.  It's a bit depressing to change it to 2012 though, after being 2010 and 2011.

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Originally Posted by lilmom 

Kyamo- I agree! I hate when I hear people say the word raped like that so lightly! Or even killed, as in "he killed it when he played his guitar" or whatever..I just think there should be a level of respect for humanity that doesn't seem to be present in alot of people!  I would tell you what she said, but honestly, it was so bad, I just think it would be really insensitive to repeat in this venue, where we all are really hoping for sweet babies asap!

I feel a bit guilty now, because I say "killed" it all the time :(

AFM: 3dpo: nauseated and headachy.  Way to early for symptoms, so I hope it's not the flu!

[Kyamo]

Objet - That must be hard having such an ambiguous test.  I hope you see a real positive in a few days.  

monkey - Thanks for cleaning up the list, I know that takes a lot of work.   One little thing though, I think granolamum is on there twice now, in the BFP and the regular list.  

[monkeyscience]

Just a quick post before work to say you were right, Kyamo. It's fixed now!

[Sweet.Bee]

Thanks, everyone, for your sympathy. And sorry for all of you dealing with similar craziness.

objet, you are 16DPO? Wow. That alone is a good sign. As for FF's recommendation to wait until 18DPO, I think they say that until they have enough of your cycles recorded to give you a test date based on your average LP length.

Hugs and good luck to everyone!

Me: 9DPO today.

[AGreenMum10]

Oject- So glad you got the Book and the Chart on the website looks good! As for the line going away.... I've been there a few times... Hang in there, HGC has to double 48 hoursand maybe it's just getting ready to double again!

Sweet.bee- I'm 10 DPO..... let the count down begin.... And I am sooooooo sorry about your Garden plans!! we have a garden in Maine and it's just getting ready... could not imagin life without my green space.... xoxo....

Smiles- Waiting that long is a crime! So sorry!!

Me: Sorry this sort of a drive by, I was really sick yesterday, came on sort of fast started at 4:30am and lasted until 1pm, missed work and just threw up... yuck... I was on anitibiotics for 2 weeks before this and my neighbor (ironically a EX fertility Nurse... love her!) Said to me that it was probally due the weekened amune system from the drugs and something funky I ate.... Seemed to make sense. But this morning I did pee on something and my temp is now highter (it's looking tri something... I forget what they call that when you have 3 levels of temps) and I don't want to Jinks anything.......So I'm 10 DPO...... 2-3 more days before I am normally going to start AF.... But I feel odd....  We shall see..... been down this road before......

[AGreenMum10]

Here is my chart.....

http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/32cf10

 

[objet_trouve]

Used up those weird strips, both negative although one of them looks the tiniest bit positive, but it might just be a shadow or seeing where the line would be. Going to use other tests tomorrow.

I'm feeling nervous about being at 17dpo with no positive tests and no AF. Should I be terribly nervous? Should I be eyeing my bottle of vitex this suspiciously?

[Sweet.Bee]

Smiles, I forgot to say this before, but I really feel your pain on the wait. We called the RE in January, and we will only be seeing them for the first consultation later this month, almost half a year later! It felt like an eternity back then, but it's under a month away now, so time does pass quickly while TTC.

greenmum, looking good, cycle buddy. Nice temp spike. 

objet, are you sure about your O date? If it's off, that could account for so many DPO.

[objet_trouve]

I'm thinking either cd10 or cd14, it's what the charting sites say (fertility friend went back and forth between those dates, the other one only ever said cd10) and cd10 does look right to me, although cd14 would make sense too. If it's cd10 (and both charts think it is), that would make me 17dpo. If I'm cd 14, that would put me around what 13dpo? In which case I wouldn't be worried, and I'd still be testing a bit early as well (although bd timing would make it pretty unlikely that I'd be pregnant). I'm looking through everything I can to interpret my own chart, but I can't quite seem to figure it out (new at interpreting it myself).

[monkeyscience]

Sending good thoughts

to all of you experiencing craziness... my computer keyboard is acting stupid, so I will leave it at that.

[Smilesarefree]

So AF came today!!!!!  Yippee!!!!!  Now I can get back to the fun old business (and disappointment) of TTC.  Good luck to all of you in the tww and hugs to all that are feeling down.

[monkeyscience]

smiles - Yay!! Maybe your ovaries are just getting ready to make SUPEREGG!!

AFM, doctor finally called me back. Well, incompetent nurse lady, anyway. They won't order a progesterone test for me, just keep pushing me to use the supplements. They WILL test progesterone when they do my beta, which is scheduled for a week from Friday. So I got on the internet and found out that AnyLabTestNow will do a progesterone test (without doctor's orders) for $49. $39 since they're doing a $10 off special. This was a little before six, and there's one a half a mile from my house that didn't close until 6:30, so I jumped into the car to get it done. (I dragged poor dh because I was a little nervous.) Well... they're closed for remodeling or something until tomorrow. There are several more around, but we couldn't make it to another one in time. So I guess I'll go tomorrow.

So then I went to drop off my prenatal vitamin prescription, along with a discount card I thought would make the co-pay $10. But then, when we were driving back from the carwash, they called and said they didn't have the vitamins and would have to order them. Then they called again and said they actually weren't covered by the discount card, so it would be a $40 copay. I can't afford that. I'm just... bleh. Frustrated. Disappointed. Not sure what to do next. Grrr.

Edited by monkeyscience - 5/4/11 at 3:29pm

[Kyamo]

Yay Smiles, glad you are no longer in limbo.  

Originally Posted by monkeyscience 

smiles - Yay!! Maybe your ovaries are just getting ready to make SUPEREGG!!

AFM, doctor finally called me back. Well, incompetent nurse lady, anyway. They won't order a progesterone test for me, just keep pushing me to use the supplements. They WILL test progesterone when they do my beta, which is scheduled for a week from Friday. So I got on the internet and found out that [url=http://www.anylabtestnow.com]AnyLabTestNow[/url] will do a progesterone test (without doctor's orders) for $49. $39 since they're doing a $10 off special. This was a little before six, and there's one a half a mile from my house that didn't close until 6:30, so I jumped into the car to get it done. (I dragged poor dh because I was a little nervous.) Well... they're closed for remodeling or something until tomorrow. There are several more around, but we couldn't make it to another one in time. So I guess I'll go tomorrow.

So then I went to drop off my prenatal vitamin prescription, along with a discount card I thought would make the co-pay $10. But then, when we were driving back from the carwash, they called and said they didn't have the vitamins and would have to order them. Then they called again and said they actually weren't covered by the discount card, so it would be a $40 copay. I can't afford that. I'm just... bleh. Frustrated. Disappointed. Not sure what to do next. Grrr.

I'm sorry you're feeling stressed.  Please don't take the following paragraphs as being bossy or criticising you, I'm just throwing out some info in hopes it might help you figure out what you want to do.  

You may already know this, but progesterone test is usually done 7-8 DPO.  So you may want to wait till then to have it done, so that you can interpret your results more easily.   The other thing is that one reason they may not want you to have the test is if they are going to recommend you take the supplements even if your prog test results are normal.  My clinic does this, so I have been using prog suppositories with my IUIs despite normal prog tests from my clomid cycles with no prog supplements.  

Prenatals, is there a reason you want to use expensive prescription prenatals?  You can get a bottle of regular prenatals for a lot less than $40.  And if the concern is not enough folic acid (some places recommend a much larger dose of folic than is in the standard prenatals) you can also take a folic acid supplement along with it, which is also not very expensive.   

[monkeyscience]

Kyamo - I did know the test is usually done 7 DPO. I haven't really been able to get a clear answer as to what I should count as 7 DPO, is part of the problem. But tomorrow seems like it's about the right time. And yeah, they probably would recommend progesterone no matter what. For me, though, it's partially just a matter of figuring out what's going on with my own body. I've never had post-ovulatory progesterone tested (because I've never been post-ovulatory since all this testing has happened!), so I would really like to know what my un-messed-around-with progesterone levels are. As far as the vitamins - no, there's not a reason I want the expensive ones. That's why I didn't get the prescription filled sooner. But dh said he saw a coupon for the vitamins at the RE's so I thought I would give it a shot, as the prenatals I was taking before are not that cheap, either. Also, the prescription ones have DHA, which my old ones didn't. But I think I will just find some over-the-counter ones that aren't too expensive. I'm a little at a loss in choosing. I don't think more expensive always equals better, but I have heard that certain forms of different vitamins are easier to absorb than others. So I really don't know what to think. On the bright side, my principal just rescheduled my meeting with him, so I don't have to meet with him till next week!