Yeah... over three years here, also. However, we had to tta in the middle when my thyroid meds were adjusted. So, I would say that the past 14 months or so are when it "should" have happened, as it was "just a thyroid issue!" (Well, obviously not.) I have been there, when it comes to feeling totally defeated. I have lots of acceptance these days, especially in the day time. It gets much tougher when I am up too late. And then there is my firm intuition that it indeed will never happen for me. That, really, it is just not meant to happen. I would be ok with that, if I could know for sure. It is the tiny bit of hope that drives me nuts at times, as well as the the question of how in the world it can be so easy for many and so impossible for some. I mean, I know of many of the issues that can cause infertility, but even then I can hardly wrap my head around this.
The nice thing I can say is that I have accepted that I cannot go back and that the past years have been lost. Now it is simply a question of whether I will ever be able to get pregnant again. I was at my worst, mentally, when I could feel the days going by and was panicking about spacing. Now the spacing would be so far apart, that a year or two makes no difference. I think it is my worst (and very possible) nightmare in this that we will never find out what is wrong. That way I will "get to" test and wonder for the next 10 years. If we could get a "it will not happen and here's why," I would be able to move on. I have moved on a lot, but all this is still always at the back of my mind. I just don't understand any of it.