Bitter Sushi Ladies, May 2011 - Page 3

[rcr]

Mae! Hi! Haven't seen you in like forever. Oh God, please don't tell me I am the only person still here who has been here long enough to remember you. Shit. OK, anyway, how is little Mae?

[lilmom]

Drive by to say, GreenMum, that is one nice temp spike! Maybe this is it!!!! 

[Sweet.Bee]

objet, from your temps, CD10 looks right to me. But then I'm confused about your CM. That would give you fertile CM only after O, which is kind of weird. Sorry, I don't know what to tell you, except I'm  for you.

Smiles, yay! And it's about time. That long cycle must have been so frustrating for you, so I'm glad you get to start afresh finally.

monkey, sorry about the vitamins. And good luck! When are you testing?

As for me, I think I might have a + HPT, but I just don't know. I tested this morning (10DPO) and there's a super light pink line. My husband saw it, too, so I don't think I'm crazy, but it's sooooo light you have to stare at the test in front of the window where the sunlight is coming in. What's giving me hope is I've never seen anything but pure white (no matter how much I squinted or stuck them up under the lamp) on these tests before (10mIU/ml sensitivity). And it came in before the 5 min and is still there.

So anxious to test tomorrow morning and really hoping. And I said I wasn't going to hope too much, haha.

[enigo]

Originally Posted by rcr 

Mae! Hi! Haven't seen you in like forever. Oh God, please don't tell me I am the only person still here who has been here long enough to remember you. Shit. OK, anyway, how is little Mae?

Oh no...I'm still here too

[Kyamo]

Good luck SweetBee for your retest.  Wow, so many ambiguous tests in this thread lately!
 

Originally Posted by rcr 

Mae! Hi! Haven't seen you in like forever. Oh God, please don't tell me I am the only person still here who has been here long enough to remember you. Shit. OK, anyway, how is little Mae?

I remember her too, but I think it was from when I was posting in the One thread.  

[AGreenMum10]

Thanks Lillmom!

Sweet.Bee!!!!!!!! ooooooooh I'm hoping for you!!!

Lava-  How are you?

Smiles- I'm glad that you get to start again..... I use to have 50+ days cycles... now I'm down to 36+/-.... what a difference... it sux only having 8 chances to get prego a year or less..... Hopefully u get a O sooner this cycle!!!

Objet- How are you doing..... ?

Everyone else, hope all is well..... thinking about you ladies, it's nice to know you are here....

Me:Hoping.... but I had a temp drop this morning to 98.04 that's a .85 degree drop... implantation? or just AF coming?..... AF will be here either Thursday or Friday if I'm getting it......here's my chart : http://www.countdowntopregnancy.com/homepage/?u=24773

thanks for showing me Objet

[objet_trouve]

Sweetbee: I was just learning about CM charting around the time when I (most likely) ovulated, and I was having difficulty knowing the difference between watery and creamy, so that could account for cm not matching up with BBT.

Agreenmum: I'm ok. Someone told me last night that her herbalist told her vitex can stop AF, and that some women need to stop taking it the week of AF. I guess that makes sense, but I'm not seeing a whole lot of other people confirming that online. I'm going off it today to see if it's been stopping AF. I'm also going to test today, I think, but I need to pick up some tests.

Your chart looks good to me I like this site. The HPT gallery is interesting. Even if I get BFNs, it's still nice to know that there are like three other crazy people who see imaginary lines. Makes me feel less crazy for seeing them, or at least not alone.

EDIT: BFN this morning. Just going to test once a day until AF from here on out.
EDIT: BFN??? Um, well, I looked at a picture I took earlier and now we both see a super faint line. Going to not worry about it. Just going to go get Chinese food with DH and try not to obsess!
Edited by objet_trouve - 5/4/11 at 1:14pm

[AGreenMum10]

Objet- Sorry I know nothing about Vitex, but your chart is confusing, no wonder you question things!!... Are you temping right when you wake? Laying down still? if you go by what I got in my count your at least 14 DPO-ish, maybe more, but again I'm not sure, if you had been charting longer we might be able to see a trend.. but either way I'm happy to see high temps for someone for more then 14 days!! That is a good sign! Get some good test sticks, go fancy get the ones in plastic!

EM- How are you? have not heard about you in while, hope that yor are well

Me: Feeling dizzy right now and I just ate (again!)... could be from the flu bug I had on monday but I'm 11 Dpo and a had a BFN this morning.... I hate waiting....

[Emaya]

Hi all!

I’ve been gone for a while because we made a move from our apartment to our new house. Well, it’s an ugly old 1970’s box, actually, that you’d have to mark “this side up” to tell the difference top from bottom, but wow is it well planned and beautifully renovated inside. Now we have three small bedrooms and one large one (ours) – daughter’s room, studio for me (I paint), and office/guest room. Feels very luxurious.  A tiny garden (all we need for herbs and some tomatoes, since we have the huge veggie garden which feeds us year around at DH’s parents’ house). Now we’re pretty much settled (THOUGH MAN; I DO NOT WANT TO MOVE AGAIN. HORRENDOUS), meaning there are still a hundred boxes about, but I have internet access so I could finally log on and see how you all are doing. Good to be greeted with some hopeful news (Greenmum, Sweetbee and Objet)!

TTC for me right now: CD 21; I believe I’m 7 dpo (didn’t take a opk – I’ve been TTC for too long for POAS to be interesting – but that’s when my EWCM started diminishing which is usually when I get the +).  No symptoms, though that doesn’t stop me from having an “ear” on my uterus at all times, “listening” for any twinges/cramps/new feelings. Last time I was pregnant (the only time – with dd), I didn’t notice a thing except irritability in the first two weeks. Then again, I wasn’t expecting/trying to get pregnant. EWCM was off the hook this month. I mean, it was practically obscene. I had to check in back of me as I went about my business to make sure I wasn’t leaving a snail trail. Whoa, sorry, that wasn’t lady-like to write. It might have been the royal bee jelly or the grapefruit juice or both. We had some great timed BD as well, which I can say for the last 20 cycles as well with no BFP resulting yet, so I know better than to get my hopes up for a little royal jelly.

Adoption class completed, now it’s on to the home study by social workers. I’m still excited about that option, but my sister gave birth to a beautiful little fuzzy thing (hairy would be the honest adjective, but that just doesn’t sound as cute) last Tuesday, and smelling my niece’s (hairy for a newborn!) head made me dizzy with desire (adoption here would most likely mean a child who is 2 or 3 years old)…

Sweet.Bee and Objet, you’ve got me on the edge of my seat! Sweet.Bee, it would be a good way to forget entirely the stress of the missing garden, what with a little sibling to your super squirmer (love that description) on the way…I’ll be checking tomorrow morning (I live in Sweden, so pretty much same time zone +or- an hour) to see your post after your test (please post!).

Objet, I love TCYF too. Love it.

AGreenMum: Please keep us posted. I’m so glad to hear of your positive HSG results (clear tube, and plenty of uterus surface area for a little one to attach), and it would be so fantastic to hear your REALLY positive news here. Sooner rather than later J

Milk8shake-did you end up getting the flu?

LTB – I’m sorry to hear you’re having a rough time of it. You have some kind of ability to be so conscious of your own feelings and thoughts – that self-consciousness can be a gift too in a way I imagine. Instead of just living the ups and downs, you are also able to watch yourself objectively, from some distance, living that roller coaster (and describe it so articulately!), and in that way you must find your situation more graspable and tolerable. I hope that’s the case anyway. I recently had a breakthrough similar to yours (about there being some clear positives with an only), and I’m still trying to keep that sense of relief/contentment alive that notion gave me. I fear it’s fleeting, though. But as you’ve noted, all of these feelings come and go.

Smiles- I’m glad you get to start fresh now. Now get geared up for ovulation!

Monkey-  I wonder how you’re doing holding off testing until Sunday… How are you feeling? One way or the other?

Please add me: Emaya, 34, TTC #2 since September 2009 with unexplained infertility

[lavatea]

greenmum - I'm doing OK, thanks for asking. Morning sickness has hit earlier this pregnancy than is normal for me, and it's bad, too. Which I guess is a good sign. But I'm nauseous all day (and night) long. If I'm not laying down, I want to be barfing. I don't actually ever throw up, though. I rarely ever throw up at all, actually, which I guess just carries over into my pregnancies. Work is killing me. I'm tired all of the time, and I'm not adjusting to the night schedule well. Plus it is super hard to be a good mom when you're trying to sleep off the shift from the night before. I like the work I do, but I just don't know if this position is going to work out for me right now in my life.

Anyway, I've been reading along here but haven't had much to post. Plus I mostly just read real fast to catch up then shut down the computer. I just don't seem to have any free time anymore. I'm either sleeping or laying on the couch avoiding chores or at work. It really stinks.

for you all

[monkeyscience]

Sweet.Bee - Test this morning (looking for trigger), and it was pretty faint, so I'm just not testing again until Sunday. Beta is scheduled for a week from Friday. Waiting to hear about your next test!

Emaya - Yay for a house!! That sounds great! Also, I added your info. Check it and let me know if it's right. As far as waiting to test... I am fine with it. I just keep talking to myself about the fact that implantation probably wouldn't occur any earlier than today or tomorrow, so there's nothing to test for. I really don't feel one way or the other at this point. Since this is my first TWW ever, I really don't have anything to compare to. Everything seems... normal. Unless the test is unambiguously positive Sunday, I'm sure I'll start going crazy obsessing then.

Lava - Good to hear from you! Sorry you're not feeling so well, but happy that your little bean seems to be squirming along! Did you have your doctor's appointment yet?

AFM, (as if the above wasn't about me!) I bought some over-the-counter prenatals (One-a-Day Prenatals + DHA) and some extra folic acid, all for about $25. The prenatals will only last a month, but the folic acid is 400 tablets, so that will last over a year! Cheaper, for sure, than the prescription stuff. Only I know the prescription stuff didn't upset my stomach, which my previous OTC prenatals did a bit. We'll see how it goes!

[objet_trouve]

Greenmum- Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm temping right. Every morning at 7 (admittedly sometimes around 9), and I try to move as little as possible when pulling out the thermometer. The only time so far that I've temped after moving around was when my cats managed to get ahold of the thermometer and drag it into the hallway. It was adorable, but I wound up walking around having to look for it. That was something like a week ago. The first time I tried temping I didn't know I was supposed to use a basal thermometer (didn't know the difference), but that was back in January I believe.

[Smilesarefree]

Monkey - SUPEREGG!!!!  I like that!!!  Sunday must feel like forever away at this point!
 

Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee 

objet, from your temps, CD10 looks right to me. But then I'm confused about your CM. That would give you fertile CM only after O, which is kind of weird. Sorry, I don't know what to tell you, except I'm  for you.

Smiles, yay! And it's about time. That long cycle must have been so frustrating for you, so I'm glad you get to start afresh finally.

monkey, sorry about the vitamins. And good luck! When are you testing?

As for me, I think I might have a + HPT, but I just don't know. I tested this morning (10DPO) and there's a super light pink line. My husband saw it, too, so I don't think I'm crazy, but it's sooooo light you have to stare at the test in front of the window where the sunlight is coming in. What's giving me hope is I've never seen anything but pure white (no matter how much I squinted or stuck them up under the lamp) on these tests before (10mIU/ml sensitivity). And it came in before the 5 min and is still there.

So anxious to test tomorrow morning and really hoping. And I said I wasn't going to hope too much, haha.

It's hard not to hope too much!!!!  Hoping you get a dark pink non-squinty line tomorrow!!!

AGreenMum - " Smiles- I'm glad that you get to start again..... I use to have 50+ days cycles... now I'm down to 36+/-.... what a difference... it sux only having 8 chances to get prego a year or less..... Hopefully u get a O sooner this cycle!!! "    """ "   "  Yes hopefully that was a once in a lifetime cycle for me and not the new norm, it was 106 days long!!!!

Emaya - Moving is a pain, we have to be out of our house mid-July and the house we are building won't be ready until mid-Sept so we will move and then have to move again, I am not looking forward to it!!

Objet - That's funny about your cats, I have 2 and sometimes they do the cutest things!  And I am also a crazy person who sees imaginary lines!

Lava - Sorry you are feeling like poop!  It will pass!!!  At least you aren't barfing all over the place.

[monkeyscience]

Okay, just had the blood draw for the progesterone test. The facility and the staff (just one lady) were way nicer than I expected. I'm officially a fan of AnyLabTestNow... though it is a franchise, so YMMV. It's so liberating to be able to decide for myself that I want a test done, and to have it done, and get the results directly. I don't get why I should need a doctor's permission to do that.

[littlest birds]

Originally Posted by rcr 

Mae! Hi! Haven't seen you in like forever. Oh God, please don't tell me I am the only person still here who has been here long enough to remember you. Shit. OK, anyway, how is little Mae?

Hi rcr, I completely remember Maeryn and you and Enigo and all those many BFPs along the way too.  (Though I rarely post here lately.)

[tantylynn]

Still lurking haha maybe one of these days I'll actually join!

[lilmom]

rcr- I too remember Mae. I was posting on the Long Cycle thread back then though, and lurking on BSL. Still trying to deny that it was taking me a long dang time. Which it still is, obviously. You are not alone.

SweetBee- I am on pins and needles over here!!!!!!!  Feeling good about this!!!! Can't wait to see your results from tomorrow.

O_T- Still excited about you too. Also, if you ever temp at a time that's not your norm (like 9 instead of 7) there is an awesome little website www.whenmybaby.com/basalbodytemperature.php that will adjust your temp for you if you plug in your temp and the time you normally temp versus the time you actually temped. I use it often and it is really great.

GreenMum- still hoping for you too. Sorry you have been feeling so icky!

Emaya- Welcome back!!! And congrats on the house, it sounds fantastic!! Also, it sounds like the adoption stuff is moving right along. That is wonderful. Of course we're still pulling for a bfp for you soon as well!

Monkey- FWIW, prenatals make me sick...really, really sick. So I don't take them. I just eat right and I do take folic acid, and if I was pg I would take DHA supps. And my DS is the healthiest child we know, for whatever that is worth. I have tried prescription ones, over the counter of almost every kind, and have never had success. Anyway, that being said, if you can find one without iron in it, that might help you. I believe it is the iron that makes me sick, because I can take all the other vitamins included, but not iron. Someone told me Nature's Sunshine makes an iron-free one, but I haven't tried it yet, just don't have the money right now. Also, I'm glad the labwork went well!

Lava- sorry you're feeling yucky too. Hang in there.

Littlest Birds and Tantylynn- hi ladies! Hope you are doing ok.

AFM, no news over here. CD13, no sign of O yet..nothing to report..

[Milk8shake]

Originally Posted by Emaya 

Feels very luxurious.  A tiny garden (all we need for herbs and some tomatoes, since we have the huge veggie garden which feeds us year around at DH’s parents’ house). Now we’re pretty much settled (THOUGH MAN; I DO NOT WANT TO MOVE AGAIN. HORRENDOUS), meaning there are still a hundred boxes about, but I have internet access so I could finally log on and see how you all are doing.

Milk8shake-did you end up getting the flu?

Sounds like a great place! We've been in our place for nearly 3 months, and I still have stuff in boxes! Don't feel bad.

No - no flu - thank heavens.  I had a nasty UTI while I was on hols, so the last thing I need is to be sick again.
 

Originally Posted by lavatea 

greenmum - I'm doing OK, thanks for asking. Morning sickness has hit earlier this pregnancy than is normal for me, and it's bad, too. Which I guess is a good sign. But I'm nauseous all day (and night) long. If I'm not laying down, I want to be barfing. I don't actually ever throw up, though. I rarely ever throw up at all, actually, which I guess just carries over into my pregnancies.

You're not alone! I'm not a puker either.  Even when I am sick, or I *overindulge* the alcoholic beverages, I never throw up.  With my pregnancies, I was the same, 24/7 nausea,  but no vomiting.

Sometimes a bit of retching and carrying on, but no spew.  Everyone said that it was a lucky thing, but usually if you throw up, you feel better for a while... I know I would have rathered to just throw up and get it over with.
 

Originally Posted by Sweet.Bee 

As for me, I think I might have a + HPT, but I just don't know. I tested this morning (10DPO) and there's a super light pink line. My husband saw it, too, so I don't think I'm crazy, but it's sooooo light you have to stare at the test in front of the window where the sunlight is coming in. What's giving me hope is I've never seen anything but pure white (no matter how much I squinted or stuck them up under the lamp) on these tests before (10mIU/ml sensitivity). And it came in before the 5 min and is still there.

A line at 10dpo is awesome.  Sounds like great news!  I bet tomorrow's test will be happy news.

AFM: Been having some crazy pregnancy dreams.  Finding myself a little bit obsessed this cycle.  I have even done a bit of DDC stalking, which I never usually do.

Having said that, I am absolutely sh*t scared of being pregnant again.  I honestly am.  I know that I want a baby, which is how I have convinced myself to be TTC, but...

I don't actually feel like I will ever have a successful pregnancy.  I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach that another pregnancy will end up with another loss.

The thought of going through the gut wrenching nerves of it all again is bad enough, but to do it and come out with nothing is terrifying. 

I'm particularly nervous about work.  I don't want to work and be pregnant.  I don't want to work and miscarry.  But, I don't want my whole life to be on hold *in case of pregnancy*

I also worry about the pressure that it puts on our relationship.  Don't get me wrong, DP is great, but a couple can't go through this stuff without some serious impact. 

Anyway, I know most of you won't relate, because RPL is not your story, but I just had to get it off my chest.

[LessTraveledBy]

Originally Posted by objet_trouve 

I'm feeling nervous about being at 17dpo with no positive tests and no AF. Should I be terribly nervous? Should I be eyeing my bottle of vitex this suspiciously?

Since you haver just started Vitex, I would expect some weirdness, or at least something different. Just never know what exactly to expect...

Originally Posted by rcr 

Mae! Hi! Haven't seen you in like forever. Oh God, please don't tell me I am the only person still here who has been here long enough to remember you. Shit. OK, anyway, how is little Mae?

I was here...

Originally Posted by objet_trouve 

EDIT: BFN??? Um, well, I looked at a picture I took earlier and now we both see a super faint line. Going to not worry about it. Just going to go get Chinese food with DH and try not to obsess!

Hoping for you. However, there are even tests out there that will turn positive after the correct time (5 mins or whatever). I am not saying your tests are this kind. I was just shocked to read this is the slip. How hard can it be to make a test that will not give a false positive, especially that soon after testing???
 

Originally Posted by Emaya 

LTB – I’m sorry to hear you’re having a rough time of it. You have some kind of ability to be so conscious of your own feelings and thoughts – that self-consciousness can be a gift too in a way I imagine.

Thank you. Yes, I think it could be a blessing or a curse, but I do consider my way of dealing with stuff a blessing. It is just the way I am, so I should just try to enjoy it.... hah.

Originally Posted by objet_trouve 

Greenmum- Yeah, I'm pretty sure I'm temping right. Every morning at 7 (admittedly sometimes around 9), and I try to move as little as possible when pulling out the thermometer. The only time so far that I've temped after moving around was when my cats managed to get ahold of the thermometer and drag it into the hallway. It was adorable, but I wound up walking around having to look for it.

No sure how it is for others.... I always walk into the living room, etc., and even temp just whenver I happen to get up. I have never had a problem due to either. I do suppose it takes some months of practice, though, to start feeling more sure.

[monkeyscience]

Okay, I officially have a reason to start obsessing... my temp just jumped .4 of a degree. Don't know if I'm going triphasic or just had too many covers, but that's a big jump just for covers...

Oh, and milk8shake - I have been DDC stalking, too...