 I must start with the story of her conception for her world came to be because two world fused together. Its long but good.....
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    In the summer of 2009 my life as I knew it changed. I made the choice that my life, my marriage, and my religion caused me to hide the person I was inside. I was not "allowed" to do many things. I was not to have friends outside of the congregation, my husband was the "head of the family" and I thought to "independently." Against my husbands wishes I went out with a worldly friend. That night I met "him". We were in similar circumstances. He had dealt with a physically/mentally abusive wife. The night came in August when my husband punched me and split my lip open and held a gun to me, I never went back. "We" knew that we met for a reason. In September we moved in together, we were both still married at the time.
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 I chose to still run my home birth practice through my changes in life. I took him to see the new baby. Baby fever set in...bad lol.
We talked about having a baby, even through our turmoil. We have been ridiculed for our choice to be togather, getting pregnant oh the rumors were flying. My ex had tried every horrible thing ,even calling my clients ,plain communities, to tell them about my immoral life. I lost alot of clients because of that.
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In December of 09 we consciously created our child. My first planned pregnancy. His ex one night decided to "love" me like she loved him. She out of the blue turned to me and attacked me. Resulting in a swollen shut eye and busted lip. I didn't know then but I was pregnant. Our whole ,small town, tried everything to brake us. I thank them because that made us know that it was meant to be.
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 I knew an unassisted birth was the way this baby wanted to be born. I had two hb all ready and well the midwife wasn't going to the hospital. As partners we grew stronger everyday the ,bs didn't stop, rumors flowed like wine, you wouldn't believe the stuff people can come up with.I just smiled and said God bless. Summer came I sunned my big belly daily while the kids played in the sand and water. I swam slot. I connected to the earth, and my "new" family. Pure joy. It felt good to listen to what felt right instead of someone thinking for me.
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 I was due in September. On September third my divorce was final. After seeing my Dr friend on the 6th she said you ain't having this baby for a couple weeks. I knew different, but her words were in my head. I told dp to go out with the guys and have some fun. He got home five mins to 1. So sweetly gives me a kiss to wake up to. Five mins later first contraction....another 5 min alter. After four contractions I knew it was time. I was just sleeping my body knew to wait for him. Dp had a crash coarse in midwifery throughout out the pregnancy. Just for him I wrote four pages one for every stage. I told dp keep everything light and funny. So I we have a house full of kids plus my dd was having a sleep over. Got all the kids out and dp said lets try to sleep. I slept for 2 hours. Through contractions.I thought labor was stopping, I slipped out of bed to walk around. Here Iam at 3am walking outside in my robe and slippers, moaning with my contractions at the moon.
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 Things picked up, so I went in to tell dp to call his mother, she had all these grand kids and never saw their births! She is also a photographer and lives an hour away. I get in the bath tub, even though the birth tub was ready to go. Dp sits by the tub for three hours "basting" me with water. Oh labor land...I was on a high like no other. Iam a very vocal person, I did alot of "toning" with my other births. I was strangely quiet just breathing. Mom arrives we thought she was going to miss the birth. I had been waiting for things to really hurt. I never had pain. In my head I'm going "you must be not far along isn't this suppose to get worse?" I got out of the tub, through a leg on the sink and checked myself. To my surprise wide open and a intact water. I waddle into my room and ask dp to check me. Hes said "I cant tell to much going on in there." After one contraction on my back, my only painful one, I said "I want a F#$%*&@ epidural! I dint want to labor like this it has to hurt more!" Dp laughed at me and went out for some air. I squat next to the bed and give a tiny push...pop there goes the for-waters and clear. I yell "get up here now!" The contractions were non stop, very eyeopening and needed all of my attention. I sat down on the birth stool and I got my wonderful 10cm rest. Contractions were 5mins apart and I could feel my uterus change over from dilating contractions to pushing. Awesome! I watched my belly rise and push on its own. I looked down and her head had emerged, so pink and beautiful. I pushed her shoulders out and she landed in her daddy's hands. Pore thing was crying, dp put her on my lap and she was so perfect. She let the whole world know she had arrived in just two pushes at 8:07a.m September 9th 2010,weighing in at 8lbs.6oz 21 in. Grandma couldn't even take pictures she was excited. Placenta came shortly after and bleeding was good.
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 Dp went outside to tell all the neighbors she had arrived. Many stopped by and commented at the placenta in a bowl on the floor. I called my Dr friend who came to check us out at home, oh I love her. Gave us a good once over declared we were "nuts" gave us a hug and left. Greta's gestation and and birth changed the way I look at alot of things. I know how people really are and if you have true love nothing will stop it. The love our family has, is like no other. The admiration I have for dp, myself, and for birth goes beyond my mental capacity. Iam strong and powerful in the mist of opposition. We let positive outshine negative. Karma will always hold true. Greta Sue is earthly for a reason, Iam humbled in her presence for she is Holy.
