I am looking for a church. I have lived in this largely Christian town for two years, but because of major marriage problems, I have made almost no friends. I filed for divorce in February and have been trying to put my life in perspective. Overall, I'm doing well, but I'm getting depressed and I'm lonely and not only am I longing for a closer relationship with God, but I need some people in my life who really give a crap about me. I freakin need a hug once in a while and I need to be around people who care about my emotional and spiritual happiness. OK, I could go on forever about that.
I have some options in this town, but all Christian oriented (I'm ok with that, though my views are a little more open...I think we all pray to the same God anyway and Jesus and I are good),,,but I don't know much about churches. I am looking at a Wesleyan Church and First Reformed (Dutch) --I have a lot of family that goes to the FRC and I do like the pastor.
I'm a little bit afraid to just walk myself into either of these churches. I have emailed the FRC pastor, but like the community efforts of the Wesleyan Church. I think part of me is so craving compassion from anyone that I'm afraid of getting it...or that if I enter into an arena where that is possible I might start weeping and never stop. I'm just scared on a number of fronts I guess.
I don't know...this is a lot of babble about different things. I really came online to find out more about these two churches and everything else spilled out.