I have a new nephew that I got to see for the first time today. By new I mean he's already 4 months old. Of course I think he's the most adorable little baby ever and I'm just in love with him. His little smiles are the best and the way his eyes sparkle melts my heart (can you tell my boys are well past the baby stage?). When the subject of breastfeeding came up I was told "oh we're not doing THAT" like it was totally gross. I know my SIL and the only reason she isn't nursing is because FFing is easier for her. My heart is breaking.
Here is where my question comes in. Because of my very strong beliefs on BFing, I will not feed her son for her. It just isn't something I can bring myself to do. I can respect her choice because it is after all, her choice no matter my feelings on the issue but I just cannot bear to sit down and put a bottle in that baby's mouth. I know I will be asked to. We are vacationing with them soon and she passes him off as often as possible (I'm bringing my sling on vacation, glad that it will be of use once more).
I'm just not sure how to keep declining this "great honor" without coming off like an elitist. Heck, maybe I am being one but I just cannot get over the heartache I feel when I've tried to do this. I fought hard to BF my babies (including being in a coma *twice* and losing my supply both times but working to get it back successfully both times) and I see her just throwing it all away. Am I a bad person for feeling like this?