As I said earlier, I have dealt with the tragedy of losing one baby through an early miscarriage, and also the death of our beautiful son, stillborn from a cord accident. While the miscarriage was so sad and such a heartbreaking event, holding our son's beautiful but lifeless body in the hospital, because of a freak accident with his cord, was tragedy and horror I never want to go through again. If I lose this baby, I hope it's soon. I wouldn't take back the experience my husband and I had with our precious son who died last year, but I also would never want to go through it again, given the choice (obviously). I had really bad cramping Friday night after our first ob visit. I thought, for sure, that it was done and I would miscarry this past weekend. But the next day I had really strong nausea, no cramping, and I've been really nauseous since. First u/s is scheduled for next Friday, when I'll be about 7.5 weeks along. I am still just trying to be grateful for every moment I'm pregnant, but after our son was stillborn so close to term, there are no more "safety milestones" for us anymore. The only thing I'll feel if I make it past the first trimester is that I'm out of the woods for having an early miscarriage. Unfortunately, my experience doesn't allow me the luxury of a sigh of relief.
I hope it's ok if I post here... I posted on the pg after loss board as well. I have a 10 year old DD, from my first marriage, no problems conceiving her or with that pg. DH and I had some known fertility issues, TTC for a while (starting in earnest in June 2007) and quickly sought out an RE. After a few IUIs, IVF was recommended as our best shot. We decided to pursue adoption instead. Shortly after our homestudy was complete, I had a surprise pregnancy which ended in an early miscarriage...that was in July 2008. Then I became pregnant AGAIN which resulted in the stillbirth of our son Stephen Ali, due to cord accident at 40 weeks.