We have 3 kids (7, 4 and 22 months) and we were so done. We made plans for the vasectomy but work has been so busy that DH hasn't gotten around to it yet. I was on the pill for a while but I was never very good at it and around February all my kids got sick for days and I forgot to take it and when I went to start again the pharmacy was giving me a hard time so I stopped. We were using withdrawal, which has worked for us for about 13 years! All my babies were planned (the first being the exception, we had a contraceptive failure, not because of withdrawal).
So...here I am, I'm pretty much beside myself. I don't have a clue if I can do it again. I was so looking forward to just enjoying the kids, watching them grow. I feel like babies are so hard, even though it's not forever. It would likely mean at least another 2 years of sleepless nights, nursing, having someone stuck to me, not being able to travel much. Also, a vehicle change and a possible addition to our home. We currently have a 2 bedroom with a third being built downstairs. I don't think money is really a huge issue, but it's still an issue.
We feel so irresponsible. Like teenagers and like we really screwed up. I don't know how to feel half the time. I've even considered terminating (and I feel like a jerk). I am only about 5 weeks along. DH is being supportive either way but basically says it's up to me. He is a very stressed out person though, and I know that this would be hard for him. But he actually surprised me and said and did all the right things when I (crying hysterically) showed him the test.
I don't have a specific question and maybe this is in the wrong place...but i guess i just needed to let it out. I don't feel like I can tell anyone IRL at the moment. Thanks for listening...