Shonahsmom: He is a sweet guy. I don't think that you did anything reckless that somehow got him to almost 10 pounds. Lots of non-GD babes are that big, and he is healthy. Second babies run larger many times. I understand the guilt. Mine isn't here yet, but I feel bad that she is a tad bit smaller per ultrasound than your typical little one. If she was a little bit bigger, I know i would feel badly too, because a big myth with diabetes is that we ultimately have a lot of control. Also, all those prenatal measures they do are so inaccurate. My friend was told hers would surely not break seven pounds, came out healthy and over nine! Yes, we can do everything right, and yes, in doing so we can still have some wonky numbers or experience complications because of it. It doesn't make it our fault. There is no way of knowing if Darwin would be big without the GD or if you would have opted for insulin. I'm glad he (and you!) haven't had any blood sugar issues post delivery. I hope that you are able to process in a way that is useful and helpful for you.
AFM: Blood glucose has improved, I'm glad. When not pregnant, I control it well, but I don't stress over the randomness. I just bolus a bit more and move on. I get all frantic now if I'm out of range. I'm still sick, I have lost my voice and am hacking up a lung. My sinuses hurt so badly. I just am soooo done. I'm kind of bummed to be spending my last kid-free days at home under a blanket, but at the same time, I'd rather feel sick now than once she is here. I never thought that she would stay in utero this long. I'm glad, I just thought she would be here by now! The home A1c kits are pretty cool. They took them off the market in the states a few years ago, but they are available again. I can't remember what the issue was.