I have a homebirth midwife who is open to the possibility that I may be delivering alone. She knows that I have fast births (birth #1 lasted 5 hours, birth #2 lasted 1 1/2 hours) and she may not make it. She knows I am not afraid of delivering alone (or with only my husband and children present). She has a 45 minute drive so if I have a super fast labor she probably won't be there during the birth.
We are in agreement that she'll be on her way and will assist afterward though. But it seems I have two options...if I really want to do it alone, I can choose to simply not call her until, perhaps, after the baby is born and I feel the need to have her assist. Or, I can call her the second I go into labor, let her be on her way, and also invite my loved ones to share in the birth. I have a 17 year old cousin who would LOVE to witness the birth (and I think it would be a great experience for her) and a couple of friends who are begging to attend.
So now I feel torn as to what I really want. On one hand, I think it would be lovely to have a homebirth "social event" shared by friends and family. Perhaps video taped and shared with friends and family online.
On the other hand, I also can see myself going into sudden labor, quietly slipping into my bathtub, having the baby, and having those first few moments alone with the baby before I even call my husband in.
I guess I know that I'm simply going to follow my instincts in the moment, but I still wanted to post about it here and get some insight from experienced home/unassisted birthers.