i've calmed down since my last post...(a bit) (Click to show)
turns out it was just my mom who told my friend to message me privately because i didn't want it all over facebook. and i guess her kids were acting up at the store and she must have heard wrong. still...i'd really like my mom to NOT be telling people anything about my cervix but whatever. i'm just going to stop telling her any progress or anything i'm making...i'm getting too frustrated.
speaking of frustrated, i am seriously angry. i was woken up an hour ago by derek's drunk friend calling to hang out with him...we were both sound asleep and had only been sleeping for like 15 minutes. there is pretty much nothing in the world i hate more than being woken up after being asleep for only 10-20 minutes. it drives me CRAZY and i find it nearly impossible to fall back asleep. and he wouldn't shut up and finally i was like DEREK. SERIOUSLY. LET'S GO TO BED. ughhhhh. i think derek fell back asleep (he moved downstairs) but i am wide awake. score.
i am feeling better physically today, i was SUPER crampy until about dinner time but then the baby did a massive drop and i haven't felt crampy at all since. i'm thankful because it was really starting to wear me out...i wasn't sure how much more of constant cramping/contractions (irregular) i could take. still losing mucous plug and having bloody show at times but whatever. the baby dropped sooooo much...i got out of the shower and asked derek if he thought she did and he said he was actually going to bring it up earlier when i was driving because my belly looked so different but we got talking.
haye is adamantly confident that the baby is coming in 7 days, so we'll see. that would put us at the 20th which would still be a week early. then again he was convinced that she would come at 6 to 7:00 at night on the 14th too...who knows. i'm just going to stop wondering and worrying and continue to slowly get ready and rest. and drink more water. i've been pretty bad about staying SUPER hydrated all the time. well, i guess that's not true. i'm just not drinking tons of water...lots of milk and juice etc so i guess that all counts for fluid intake, technically.
i love my church but emotionally i am a ticking time bomb and get furious very easily these days over comments...i almost want to skip church sunday so i don't have to keep my emotions in check the whole time. then again i know that they all mean well (our church is mostly senior citizens) and they are planning a shower for us for next sunday, so i should probably check in with them. we skipped church last sunday because we were all exhausted.
first contraction in hours just started. ouch.
i hope you're all doing well.