Keeping up is hard to do in the midst of this move, so know that I'm thinking of you all each day! I was excited to see three new little ones arrived while I was checked out!
I'm still pg.
The move in is going fairly well - it rained all day today and we realized the roofer dude, if you will, must've already resealed our goofy old metal-shingle roof, since there were no leaks! (and the last time it rained, hard but for a very short amount of time, there had been a few) Yay Roofer Dude, wherever you are. :) And, with all that rain, dh had nothing to do but attack the inside of the house. It no longer looks like a storage unit in the entryway - he and the kids spread things around to their proper rooms for the most part. We had lots of service guys in and out this afternoon - I'm so glad most of that is done an dh has been around to deal with all of it. If nothing else, it will be fairly easy for me to sit and go through some things here and there even after the baby is born so we can get a good pile of things to take to the thrift stores.
Oh yeah! Dh didn't have to leave today like we thought he would - they did the standard drug test and told him to come back Thursday ready to leave, but to call first to make sure they had in fact received the results of the test. I went in briefly and met the office staff so they have NO QUESTION that I could quite literally have a baby at any time. Every day he doesn't leave is a day where the baby could be born, and they would have no problem giving him some time off at that point, so I'm still hoping that might happen. Of course, everyday his leaving is postponed is one day longer he'll be gone on the other side of that trip when I could feasibly be having the baby! I really want to have the baby before my mom gets here on the 24th... nothing against Mom being here, I just think I'd like for us to have a day or two with just the 5 of us getting to know each other a little bit. So ideally I'd just have the baby tomorrow. Let me just pencil that in.... I have random powerful-seeming contractions that don't hurt, but that I have to stop and breathe through - I can't walk, and sometimes I can't even talk! Which for me is saying something... lol! I've never had contractions like that before labor really started before. I'm hoping hoping hoping that there's a lot of work happening so that true labor will be fairly quick.
I found my daughter's tiny newborn stuff, so now if my little love shocks me by being a girl, "she" will be properly dolled up. :) And I found three nursing-friendly nighties I haven't seen in awhile, and some summer clothes that are quite a bit bigger than last summers clothes from some chunkier days gone by - I was thrilled! Maybe I won't have to buy much to get through this summer. My weight never comes off as quickly as I hope it will, and I've gained more this time than before, with the added bonus of being 9 years older. Fabulous!
I'm still kind of sketchy about how clean the house is, and how clean this apt is going to be when we get moved out - someone is going to have to help with that, probably Mom. And it's the same thing - sure dh and Mom will help, but they won't do it like *I* would do it!
Finally vacuumed out the car and installed the car seat - good fun!
Oh, and we took the kids out for dinner for a combo house-closing-dh's-bday-our-last-dinner-with-just-the-four-of-us, and I got all teary-eyed! Just knowing our family will be radically different forever is so wonderfully exciting and so sort-of bittersweet at once!
Evergreen, I hope your dh gets home in time! And pitches in immediately. :) And I hope you get a birth YOU feel good about, and are able to let go of others' expectations! I understand what you mean, and have similar fears surrounding the idea of a needle in my back!! Plus anesthesia doesn't historically go over with my genes, so I worry that if things were radically painful, and I was struggling, that I would get my heart and mind set on an epidural as relief and then it wouldn't work - I'd lose it! At least your doula is supportive of however you want to handle things. If it helps at all, Idk, but as a big NCB proponent who initially planned for a UC, all that I like to think about for other women is that they fully know their options - they're not being bullied or BS'ed or roped with blind trust into a "birth plan" that is going to rob them of something they will struggle for years to recover. When I know a woman knows her options, understands the risks involved, and has made a choice for herself and her baby based on her knowledge, I'm excited for the birth they have together, no matter how or where that takes place!! I know the "militants" are out there, heehee, and I know I can sound like one of them, but I like to think any NCB-kinda-gal (or for that matter, ANY-kinda-gal) would give you the mental and emotional space to handle this birth *however* you want and need to handle it! I'm only militant with myself - no one else should or need worry about meeting my standards. Nothing is more ridiculous than feeling like we have to defend our informed birth choices to each other, and I hope your friends have a burst of understanding and give you the support you deserve as you decide how to have your baby! And h3!! - that goes for all of us here. ;)
ELVs to everyone still waiting!! I'm lurking around whenever I can!