I need some help from anyone who has gone through this before and found some solutions. This is the second time this has happened to me, although it is not quite as severe this time around. I am OK during the day, and feel like myself, but as night approaches, I start to feel anxious. As the night wears on, I start to feel frightened of going to bed, of my husband going to sleep so I am alone, and of my husband leaving to go back to work. I am too scared to sleep in my bedroom in our basement, so we have been sleeping upstairs so he can be near me when he goes to sleep. I can't go to sleep at the same time as him, because of the fear. It causes me to have crying jags, hyperventilation, fast heartbeat and just feel awful, like everything is horrible, and I feel like I just can't cope. The feeling is not related to other stressors, simply to the idea of going to bed. During the daytime, I feel rather like my normal self, and have no problem coping. Sometime in the early morning (like 3-6AM or so) the feeling lifts all by itself and I have no problem going to bed. It is really weird. For some reason when I sit in the bathroom for a while, sometimes the feeling goes away until I leave the bathroom. I can actually feel the cloud lift away, and the light in the room visibly brightens. SOOO weird. I thought maybe it was the fluorescent lighting in there so I put a bulb in a lamp in the bedroom, but it didn't help. It seems to me that it is a chemical or hormonal issue in my brain or something because of the strange symptoms. the last time this happened after my last child, it took about 2 weeks to fade away.
The reason I am posting this is that I am hoping it will go away on its own this time too, but I need help coping until then. If anyone out there has dealt with this and knows of any tricks to help deal with it, I would very much appreciate it. It is really ruining what has otherwise been a wonderful pregnancy and birth and I am afraid I might do something rash while caught up in the emotions. Help!