OK, so I am a mother of a wonderful, adorable little boy who is going to be 11 months old in a few days. I have ALWAYS had anxiety, but never quite like I have been experiencing it in the past 11 months. People think I am crazy and that I need to just "Get over it". Those words hurt the most, especially since they do not know how I am feeling nor that I truly do believe I am crazy. I agree with them, that I need to get over it, the problem is I simply cannot. no matter what I do, it's still there. It feels like a bomb keeps going off in my chest and in my head. When I get up in the morning its all I can do to actually get out of bed. And when I actually DO get out of bed, I pray that my son sleeps just a little longer [of course, he hears me and wakes up, lol.] I DO love my son, I'm not saying I dont. but I constantly walk out of the house feeling like I'll never see him again. I freak out if I do something wrong. I get panic attacks at least 2 times a week. Terrible migraines. I feel helpless, like nobody in the world knows how I feel. I want to "get over this" so I can be the person I was before I became a mother, but still be a good mother at the same time. going out of the house or having to get things done gives me panic attacks. I yell at my boyfriend constantly, over NOTHING. I never seem to be hungry, I'm always tired [never sleep however] and I just want to know that I'm not the only one out there feeling this way. I don't even know really how to write down here everything I'm feeling. what i've written already isnt even a fraction of the feelings I feel every day. Has anyone ever gone through anything [even the slightest bit similar] to what I've been experiencing?
Mommy to KSM<3