I aways have this kind of problem. I could really use peoples thoughts.
Here are the two recent examples-
I have been praying for more money, more work for DH etc. We are really hurting financially.
1) The other day I was walking with DD in stroller, after a rain, on a narrow sidewalk next to the street. I see money (like $12!) in a puddle at the very end of a driveway, on the street side of the sidewalk. I hesitated then decided NOT to pick the money up. I told myself it was unsafe, someone else's, wet and dirty. WAS that money from God? Am I refusing a gift?
2) a few weeks later...a while ago I put out a local query to see if anyone would want me and DD (2 yr old) to babysit. The ohter day some one said "yes" HOWEVER, it is early in the morning (earlier than we are usually able to get out), it would be 1/2 hour or more drive it would be three boys between age 2 and 4. It would be a total of about 5 hours over two mornings. I feel like I SHOULD do it. LIke it is God offering again. BUT OMG it would be really really hard. My DD is enough to handle by her self, at home...
What would you do? Am I refusing gifts? Is that how things work?
On another note last Sept we were really struggling to find a place to live.There was NO where for us. Then thru real serendipidy we got one. We said yes right away. But we can't really afford it. Any other place would have still been $$ but not quite so much. AND right about when we moved in DH lost one of his jobs, the good one with insurance. Should we have questioned THAT offer? I had really been working on surrendering it to God. It worked out so amazing (DH worked with the owner, and other positive things)
thank you for any insight...