That's how I keep envisioning myself having this baby. Not ALL alone, but the MW not making it or something like that.
Not that it bothers me, but I think I was mentally preparing myself for so long to HAVE to go unassisted that it's just a part of what I see now. I WANT my MW there. She's great and very hands off and she knows I literally just want her chilling in the living room while I do my own thing alone in the bedroom and is 100% fine with that... just wants to pop in ever hour or two and monitor things for a couple of mins. I want that security as well, but I have no fear of something going wrong and I'm prepared for it. I feel so at peace about this labor & birth (which I'm afraid may be a downfall lol).
I had a dream a few weeks ago that just stuck with me. I was at home, started laboring, and I just got in my tub by instinct while my husband was blowing up the birth pool. Shortly after I pushed a baby out in the tub with no complications, a beautiful little baby. I wasn't even thinking of my MW until I wanted to get on FB and here and post how much the baby weighed and then I realized I didn't know bc the MW wasn't there to weigh him, so I called her from the tub and was like "Hey, we have a baby! Wanna come weigh him?" lol
I guess it's a very real possibility though because she does live an hour away. But IDK. I keep going back and forth. Mentally I want her there and I know she'll respect my wishes and leave me alone. But I still "see" me doing this without her.
Wonder if it could it be just because I was planning an unassisted for about a year?