With all the difficulties we have had with our newest baby girl, it has been easy for me to overlook the fun things I daydreamed about during the long wait for her to come home.
One of the big ones for me was a baby party. Even though she is my 3rd child, I never had a baby shower or welcome home party for my other children. I never felt celebrated as a mother, or had a celebration for our children joining our family. That is partially because I have a crappy family, but that is another story! LOL! So, since I never had that experience in the past and I knew this would be our last baby, I really wanted the experience of family and friends coming together to celebrate her homecoming.
My best friend has been fantastic, and together we planned a welcome home baby party, and it is tomorrow. I am actually really excited!
I feel like the wait for this little one to join our family was so long and so hard for me. It took me a while to wrap my head around the true picture of what our family is now since I was expecting an African American baby boy and our dd is a very caucasian baby girl. The empathy and sadness I felt for her birthmother were really intense, and I didn't anticipate the force of those emotions at all. Then when dd came home I was blindsided by the difficulties with her crying and development that I have felt totally out of sorts. I have pretty much come around now and have accepted that she is who she is. Yes she is an extremely high needs baby, yes she probably had some (hopefully minor) developmental/and or health issues.... but she can also be one of the most charming little babies I have ever seen. She is absolutely adorable and has the cutest smile! She has tons of personality in that loud little package, but most importantly, she is MINE. And, tomorrow is all about celebrating that and celebrating her.
Thanks for listening!