I'd like to join in. I'm 6.5 weeks today (I'm not sure of my exact due date) and expecting baby #4. My other three were all natural hospital births and I will also be having this baby in the hospital where I work as a labor and delivery nurse. I'm having some nausea and many food aversions, and I'm craving cherries like there is no tomorrow. I'm also completely exhausted and feeling sort of overwhelmed at the idea of FOUR children but I'm happy to be pregnant.
Pilar--I'd love to live in Italy someday! I lived in London for a year after my undergrad and my DH is from Israel (where is family still lives) so we travel often. Although a little less often now with a toddler! Anyway, I know the urge to be home must be strong now though. Just thought I'd mention that I felt a lot like you last time, not nervous at all about taking care of a baby/child (I was a nanny for years), but really nervous about the whole labor and delivery part. Turns out that I LOVED giving birth! Yes it was intense and yes it was painful, but as soon as labor started for me I was transported to this place of trusting my body and being totally in the moment. I never had a moment of fear once labor started. Of course then I found the first 4 months with a baby and BFing really difficult and wished I had prepared better for THAT! Just my experience, but thought I'd share. My advice (even though it's early) is to avoid bad/scary/sad birth stories and to surround yourself with positive ones. Anything that reaffirms your own trust in your body is good--Hypnobirth, prenatal yoga, any book by Ina May Gaskin, the movie "Orgasmic Birth", etc.
I like this advice. I would also read "Birthing from Within" it is one of my favorite books to suggest to pregnant friends or patients. My coworkers are always shocked and some are downright dismissive that I give birth naturally, but I just think it's the right way to have a baby. Yes, contractions hurt and are strong, but women are stronger. As crazy as it sounds I really enjoy labor. Not the pain, but the way it just brings out your primal emotions and instincts, and with a natural birth I just don't think there's anything better than that moment at the end when you see your baby for the first time, and the pain is gone, and nothing else exists in the world except you and this tiny person and the amazing journey you've just gone through to meet each other. It's so beautiful and so worth it.