Short Backstory: When I was six, my father brought another woman into his marriage with my mother. We became a 'polyamorous' family, and Jenna moved in. She went off her meds when she had a baby and became abusive towards me and Cameron, my brother who is 2 years younger. She had a son from a previous marriage, Brian.
We were starved, beaten, threatened and brought down to a level where we thought so little of ourselves that neither of us even SPOKE for a few months, for fear we would get hurt. I swear our toys sat untouched for so long, because we just couldn't play. We were so unhappy. When I was 11, my dad starting raping and molesting me.
After almost two years of my dad's abuse, I was put in foster care, and my brother stayed with my bio mom. Mom kicked Jenna out. My youngest brother (Jenna's baby, Brendan) was given to his grandparents. My dad ran. I went home to my mom after 6 months of her fighting tooth and nail to bring me home. Jan 2005 my father 'died' (I am convinced he faked his death....) in a drunk driving accident. His family still thinks I made everything up.
Fast forward to today: I have a VERY close relationship with my mom. Cameron, Brendan and I don't even talk that much. And Cameron is graduating on Friday. Brian and I are the closest, ironically. DH, my daughters and I are driving down to Texas to see Cam graduate. Here is the thing though. EVERYONE will be there. My dad's family, Brendan, everyone. Jenna won't, I don't think, but she has been asking me to visit for months. I made the mistake about a year ago to add her on FB in the hope of finding closure.
Should I see her? I am honestly terrified of her. DH thinks I may not get closure. He thinks that I would be putting myself in danger, and he has forbidden me to take the girls to see her (as if I would anyway....). I have no idea if I even want to see her. My mom kicked her out because she didn't believe me.
I just want to stop feeling so powerless, kwim?