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post #221 of 299

If you were to one day knit for sale, how much would a pair of longies be? whistling.gif lol. I need/want to buy a few pairs, but always end up chickening out because of the price. Once we get closer to the baby coming I'm going to have to bite the bullet and buy at least one pair though. 

 

I wrote about it very longwindedly in my DDC if anyone wants the whole deal, but DH is essentially being fired/quitting his job today. Some crap went down two week ago when he asked for two days off in order to compete in a hiring process with the city paramedic service, and his company decided he's not loyal enough anymore, and doesn't value the work he's getting (even though most of their employees work at both places). When his July schedule came out yesterday... he wasn't on it. His boss didn't even have the nerve to tell him, so he called his second in command boss, and was told that bossman thought DH needed to examine his priorities and whether he truly wanted to work for the company... assured him that he wasn't fired, but that he wouldn't have any work for the month and they would see in august. It's BS, as that company has pretty much ruined our lives over the past year with how much crap DH has put up with to continue working for them. If the labor board found out about half their practices, they would be shut down, add to that a boss/owner who is delusional and makes decisions (including current policy and procedure) based on his mood at the time..., and it's just been a nightmare. I've been asking DH for months to quit, but he couldn't convince himself to bite the bullet... so this has kind of done it for him. 

 

He worked his shift last night, and this morning (I thought he should have called them and said go screw yourselves, I'm not showing up...) and then he's going to call them today and tell them he's quitting and htey need to cover his last 3 shifts. I'm glad that he's done... both to be away from the company, to have a new opportunity at a new job (iwth better pay, an HR department, possibly health benefits, and just... something more in his field), but also because it means we will have some time off together now. It's kind of a miracle. I feel like we haven't had time together to just breathe in over a year. Also-- we have a TON of stuff around the house and yard to finish, so even if it takes him 4-6 weeks or more to find another job, he'll have enough stuff around here to do-- and it's probably the only way it would ever have gotten done, so it's a blessing really. 

 

He's got to put up a new fence in our yard, including two gates, then re-sod our side yard, put down soil and seed in our front lawn, put in a few flower beds/planters... and then inside we have an entire basement to finish. It's been gutted, but we haven't had time to reconstruct it into a finished basement yet, and it would be wonderful to get that done before the baby comes. yay!

 

Anyways... so we're going to take off camping today for a few days, which will be soooo soooooo amazing. I can't wait to just... relax. Have some time to ourselves, without his bosses constantly calling him and asking things, or giving him two hours notice for a shift. And then when we get back, it will be so nice to see our home start to take shape again around us. 

 

I feel like I should be more upset that I'm 17 weeks pregnant and my husband is now unemployed... lol... but really I'm angry at the company and their $hit poor methods of doing things, but so glad for the push it's given DH, and the summer it will afford us. Financially we'll be fine, we put pretty much one of our whole salaries in the bank each month, plus we have savings, and a LOC on the house we got specifically to renovate... so we'll be fine for a few months... so all I see is possibility. 

post #222 of 299

JJ: it is one of those blessings in disguise probably. DH got laid off the same month we found we were pregnant with DS. fun times, that.

 

I love hats on babies, they are so cute! but I rarely put one on DS when he was small, though he was a winter baby. they were either far too small or way too big. Maybe on DD they will fit better . . .

 

 

post #223 of 299
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The ROT I've been told for pricing hand knit or crocheted items is 3 times the cost of the yarn. That means longies can get pretty expensive depending on the yarn and how big they are. So, for example, I could potentially sell a pair of small longies like these, 500, for $90. I can't imagine someone actually paying that much for them, although I have seen longies for sale for a lot more. If I were going to sell them, I might start out asking for $50-60. That's why I started making my own. The cost of new ones knit by someone else was too much for me. You could try to find some used to get them a little cheaper.

Have you checked out Spots Corner on Hyena Cart? http://hyenacart.com/stores/Spots_corner/index.php?title=1&tags=1&all=longies&allnot=&category=0&h=on&s=on&u=&submit=Search

That actually sounds like a good thing for your dh and you. Enjoy your weekend camping.
post #224 of 299

Um...I just spent $25 EACH on hats that someone knitted with acrylic yarn!  You could easily ask $90 for wool longies, woman!  People who don't know how to make things but want them WILL pay.

 

JJ - It really sounds like this whole situation is for the better.  What a crappy company to "fire" him in that way.  Like anyone would continue working after being told not to come in, or not being on the schedule.  That's ridiculous!!  I'm glad you'll have some peace and quiet camping, etc.  Enjoy it!  And good luck to your DH with his new job.  That's awesome.

 

MW - how was the phone call with Sean?  I hope it didn't leave you too down.

 

AFM - BH ctx are SUPER annoying.  I know that's all they are, so no, I'm not worried, but damn.  It's to the point where I can't tell where the baby is, every time I push my belly it's contracted!  Ugh.  Srsly?  For the next 6-8 weeks if this continues I'm going to go insane!!

post #225 of 299
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I looked at new longies for sale at HC just to see how much people were asking. I think it was around $50-60 for size medium. That seems really low to me unless they knit very fast. It takes me about a week to knit a pair of longies but that's with a lot of interruptions. I guessed at maybe being able to knit for an hour or two a day. If I take out the cost of the yarn, that's only $2.50-5.00 an hour for my time. That's below minimum wage. Then if you figure that at least half of that gets invested back into more yarn to make more to sell, I don't see how anyone could make a profit. If I ever remember, maybe I'll try to keep better track of exactly how many hours it takes me to knit some longies. I think I'd have to charge at least $80 to make it worth my while.

Our phone call was good until the end. We got cut off before we could say good-bye. greensad.gif That happens quite a bit.

I get those contractions all the time, too. I've also noticed I'm moving a lot more slowly. I don't know if it's because I physically can't move faster or if I think I need to be cautious for some reason. Sometimes I wait too long to go to the bathroom and when I do get up it hurts and I feel like I won't make it to the bathroom. lol.gif
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Ok, now we are on to the name Dylan. It means either son of the sea or is a reference to a mythological sea god. DH says he likes it and I think I could live with it. According to Babycenter, common sibling names for boys named Dylan are Ryan and Ethan so I guess it would fit us. It's pretty popular, though, ranking #31 last year and #33 this year. I don't really like Dylan Sloan. I'm too tired to try to find a middle name.

Kellen is driving me crazy. He's constantly moving and talking and I can't take it anymore. For example, I was trying to lay down and rest in bed for a little bit. He came in and said he wanted to lay down with me. He didn't really lay down, though. He twisted and turned and flipped and flopped and put the covers on and took them off. I finally had to tell him to get out of the bed because I couldn't stand it. Now I just had to take him out of the room because he was climbing all over the chair that Ethan was sitting in and wouldn't stop or move away when asked. He laughs like he thinks it's funny when I tell him he'll have to leave the room if he doesn't stop bothering everyone else. He also laughs and tries to hurry up and do whatever he's been asked not to do when I get up to get him. I'm so exhausted. I don't know what to do.

I've gone a week now without my iron supplement. I ran out and the local store didn't have even though I was told they would order more and I kept putting off ordering it online because it costs almost twice as much with shipping. I did finally order some yesterday and paid for 2 day shipping so it should be here Monday.
post #227 of 299

MW, is your DH ok with the spelling "Dylan" instead of "Dillon"? I like Dylan a lot better than Dillon. It does fit with your other sons' names but you're right, it's pretty popular.

 

AFM: A few days ago, DSS 10 asked to go to the park where we got married so we decided to go there today. It's about an hour away from our house so it required packing a lunch and being gone for most of the day. The kids had fun but I was having a lot of BH ctx while we were out. It started to make me sick at my stomach. Just trying to take it easy tonight and not do too much. I did get the diaper bag from our registry in the mail today so I just finished packing up Ava's bag for the hospital! I need to hurry up and get her bed finished. It's really hitting me that she could be here any time! I just hope that we find out on Friday that's she's flipped vertex but I don't think she has.

post #228 of 299
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Getting very close, Annie. smile.gif

Yes, dh said he was ok with Dylan instead of Dillon. I think he agreed to that because I sent him a long list of all the names we had originally discussed plus a few more. His first comment was that he noticed none of the names he had picked were on that list and he figured that was my way of letting him know I was going to get my way. lol.gif That wasn't my intention. I just wanted to stop him from coming up with new names that were just muddling the waters. Funny, though, that now he rejects the names he had originally suggested. I'm still mulling over Dylan. I think of all the names he has agreed to or said he likes that's the one I could live with the most.
post #229 of 299

Yay on hopefully a name! I like Dylan. I know it is high on popularity, but that may just depend on where you are. For example; growing up I knew NO ONE named Katrina, now I work in a department of 60-70 women and there are 3 Katrina/Catrina's and one Trina. And we are all pretty much of the same generation. So, he may still be the only or one of a few Dylan's that you know, if Dylan isn't very common there.

 

I know it really is never too early for BH, I have them already, and I do think it often is a signal to me I need to slow down. I mean, I am not even 30 weeks yet! most of the time I don't even notice them, it is only when I'm trying to figure out the lay of the baby that I really notice, but it was the same with DS. I am sure I had them earlier, but I didn't notice them until later.

 

Glad you had a good call with your DH MW. I hate being cut off!

 

Annie, fx she flipped!

 

I know wool lasts a long time, but the expense of it is one reason why I never have done it. Some of the cheaper longies may be made from recycled sweaters; far less time and skill involved in creating those. I have a hard time shelling out $20 for a diaper, let alone $50 or more for longies. Granted, I could crochet my own, at far less expense, but . . .nah. They are so cute and tempting though, especially the skirties!

 

 

post #230 of 299

Annie - fx she's flipped! I'm really, really hoping for you.  That would be awesome!

 

MW - I really like Dylan.  It was on our list for a bit too!  We do have similar taste in names, don't we!?  LOL!  Hmm, middle names.  Does it need to mean warrior?  Dylan Sloan is NOT bad, though.  I wouldn't agonize over changing it, I actually like it.  DH tried to tell me that Finnley Dax didn't sound right together and didn't want to use Dax but I said hell NO.  We are NOT changing Dax.  For a bit I thought maybe I wanted to name him just Finn, instead of Finnley, but Finn Dax doesnt work (I also thought it sounded too much like Windex)  -- so I said forget it.  Finnley it is.  If Finnley doesn't like going by his full name, he can go by Finn or he can go by Dax.  Either way is fine with me.  Who knows what we will call him when he's actually here?  I never thought I would shorten Nora to Nor all the time, or that her nickname would be Bubba.  You just don't know these things ahead of time!  LOL!

 

Alright so hear me out on this one.  It's a little bit of crazy talk, but I woke up in the middle of the night thinking about it and I want you all to chime in.

 

So, my platelets dropped again, like you guys know.  They are now at 129.  If they fall below 100 at the next blood draw (around 37 weeks) I risk out of homebirth.  I've been really upset thinking that I might have a hospital birth this time, b/c I've been so set on homebirthing this whole time.  Now...(and this is the crazy talk) I'm thinking what if this is a sign?  I don't know if you guys believe in "signs" and "meant to be's" but, what if the hospital is where I need to be for this baby?  You guys know this whole time, I've been terrified of stillbirth and have been doing a lot of work mentally to overcome my fears.  For a long time I just couldn't accept that this baby was even going to be here after this pregnancy.  I've had a lot of trouble accepting that he'll make it.  Doing the Hypnobabies Fear Release has helped me SO MUCH to trust my body and the process, and I'm finally at  peace knowing he'll be ok.  I've been feeling great about it, about the birth, about picturing him here in my arms alive and healthy!  It's been awesome and I feel really good!  I'm in a good place. 

 

I've been really upset thinking about losing the homebirth and losing the picture I've painted in my mind for the birth.  But now I'm like...what if this platelet thing is for a reason?  What if I *should* be in a hospital?  Part of the fear is coming back that I'll lose him if I'm home.  I think that I'm willing to accept that if my platelets drop, it's just matter of fact where I need to go.  Regardless if it results in PPH or not.   Maybe my gut has been right all along?

 

Then part of me starts thinking, hmm.  What if I should just go to the hospital regardless?  I feel like it would guarantee me a living baby.  Hmm.  Idk.  I'm just thinking. 

 

I told you it was crazy talk!!  

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Uh oh did I kill the thread with my morbid talk? hide.gif

post #232 of 299

Baby_Cakes, no way! I meant to come back and respond to this last night but I had a total emotional breakdown, complete with crying for no reason and I just needed to lay in bed and not interact with anyone!

 

I totally understand your feelings about the possibility that maybe you need to birth in the hospital. I've had similar thoughts with regard to needing a c-section for Ava's position. I don't WANT a c-section but if that's what appears to be the best thing for her, then that's what I'll need to do. I don't think either of us would go in our specific situations with our eyes closed. I know that you are well-informed as am I and that we'll make the best decisions for our babies. Medical professionals and hospitals are not completely unnecessary in my opinion. They are there for when their skills and life-saving equipment are needed. 

 

AFM: Oh boy, I'm quickly reaching the "I'm DONE!" part of this pregnancy. Question for the mamas that have given birth before. I feel like right now, I am going through the most physically challenging portion of having this baby in that my body is so sore all the time but I still have to go to work, and try to get stuff done around the house. Am I being naive to think that it will be easier once the baby is here and I have my body back to myself? I know the first few days or weeks will be hard because I'll be sore and recovering from birth but I'm not expecting to be bed-bound and lots of people keep making comments like "How are you going to take care of the other kids after you have the baby?" Am I missing something? I survived this past week of working from home full-time while also caring for them (cooking, cleaning, referring fights, etc.) while feeling like crap. I know that I will be spending a lot of time nursing the baby but I also won't be needing to work 8 hours a day on the computer. Am I in La-La Land?

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hug2.gif Carrie & Annie.  I think the worries are a normal part of this stage of pregnancy.  I like one of my MW's very well, but I'm a bit worried about the other one.  I also really like the MW I've been seeing at the Naval Hospital.  But I've been seeing myself more and more often birthing alone.  Not that I'd be really alone; my mom & DH should be here.  But after a 2.5 hr birth & with the MW's an hour plus away, it really is a possibility.  And lately I've been thinking that's ok.

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Carrie- I understand totally; out of 4 full term pregnancies, my mom only has 2 living children, so I know sometimes our fears are grounded in reality. If you are feeling the best place for you and Dax is in a hospital, there is nothing wrong with that. Plenty of women have great hospital births. The whole possible transfer thing is one of the big reasons DH is more in favor of hospital birth than home birth (at least as far as who we end up having to pay!) I think a long talk with your midwives is in order; if you decide due to platelets, etc, that hospital birth is the way to go, it is maybe better to become at peace with it first, than in the middle of  a transfer.

 

Annie - maybe so, re: the c-section. Babe still has time to turn though.

 

MM: I pictured giving birth alone all during my pregnancy with DS, and wouldn't mind it with this baby either. with such a precipitous labour in the past, it is certainly a possiblity!

 

AFU: starting the sorting and packing process this week, to move in with the in laws. not fun.

Also sort of working on potty training DS. He has been in training pants for almost 2 hours and hasn't peed yet, either in them or in the potty. curious, that.

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I didn't get any email notifications of new posts from this thread yesterday but I had two when I got up this morning. WTH? This notification system is so wacky.

Yeah, I think unless you pick a very unusual name, you never can know if or when the name you pick will be prevalent. I should quit worrying about that. I mean, Ryan and Ethan are pretty high on the list, too, even though I didn't know anyone with either name when I was growing up. And I'm starting to see Kellen more and more, which is weird because I had never even heard that name before dh found it.

They say you have uterine contractions all the time, even when not pg or pmsing or having AF, but most of the time you don't feel it. I started feeling contractions at around 12w when I was pg with ds3. It scared me at first but after awhile it just got to be normal. I had noticeable contractions early on with ds2, also.

Carrie ~ We do have very similar taste in names. I think Finnley Dax sounds very good together. It's so funny how different people can have such different reactions to that sort of thing. I keep trying to figure out in what universe my dh can actually think the names he has suggested sound good. I keep questioning him about whether he really likes those names or he's just trying to come up with anything that meets my criteria and has a meaning he likes. He swears he likes the way they sound. I think he must be nuts. lol.gif

I'm not too hung up on the middle name. It's so rarely used. We never use middle names in our family. I don't even have one. But I don't think the warrior meaning is so essential if we go with Dylan because that has some reference to some mythological hero of the sea or something like that. I just don't feel like searching for another middle name. Maybe I will one of these days.

While I don't necessarily believe in signs, I do believe in listening to your instincts. If you feel like something isn't right, even if you don't know why, it's probably a good idea to avoid it. You'll have to explain to me again what the issue is with your platelets being low and what PPH is again. It's not quite the same as iron-deficient anemia like I have, right? Is there anything you can do to try to get the level to rise? I just read a little bit about it. It seems to have the same complication as anemia, the possibility of excessive bleeding after birth. If I had gotten my hemoglobin up by taking the liquid iron, I would have risked out of a homebirth for that reason. You aren't taking anything that would thin your blood, are you? Would taking vitamin K or drinking alfalfa tea or something like that help? I don't know if that affects platelets directly but it does help the blood to clot.

I'm a big proponent of homebirth. You guys know that. However, I do understand that there are times when a hospital birth is necessary. Neither way guarantees a live, healthy baby, though. It doesn't sound like this puts Finn in any danger. It's you that would be in danger from excess bleeding after birth, right? From the little bit I just read about low platelets, there isn't a definitive consensus on what number is dangerously low. Obviously, though, if your MW won't attend you, you have to accept that.
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Where did all the new posts come from? The last one I saw before posting was Carrie asking if she had killed the thread.

Annie ~ If your dh can't be home for the first couple of weeks and you are going to have your other children to care for, I would see about having someone else come to stay for a bit. You won't necessarily be bed bound but you will need to take it easy, not go up and down stairs a lot or do any heavy lifting like laundry baskets full of clothes and heavy grocery bags, for a while because you don't know what might happen.

It all depends somewhat on your body and your birth. I was pretty much bed bound for several weeks after the c-section I had with ds1. I was told not go to up and down stairs at all for 2 weeks. When the heavy bleeding stopped and 2 weeks had past, I ventured down the stairs and almost immediately started bleeding very heavily again so back to bed I went. After ds2, I was very swollen and sore and really couldn't walk around much for at least a week. I don't think I would have been able to take care of other children during that time. With ds3, I was up and about within a day or two. I think maybe the first day or two were spent sleeping, not because I wasn't physically able to get up and do things. I was just tired. I remember being surprised at how quickly I was back to doing almost all my usual things. I assume that had to do with the type of birth I had with him.

I'm hoping for the same as ds3 this time. But, since my dh won't be here at all, I have arranged for my mother to stay with me to help. If nothing else, I'm looking forward to her taking my boys to TKD while I stay home and get some alone time with the baby. Even if you feel physically able, you may want those first few days to just be with your baby so it would be nice to have someone else there to do the cooking and shopping and laundry and such. Better to have arrangements for help and not need it than have nothing and end up needing it desperately.

I've been thinking a lot lately about birthing without my MWs. I wouldn't plan to do it on purpose but I wouldn't totally freak if it happened. I don't have quick labors, though, so it's probably not likely. I'm with you, Shannon. 100% love one of the MWs but not quite sure about the other. I do appreciate what she's doing, though. Otherwise, I may not have a choice.
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AFM: Oh boy, I'm quickly reaching the "I'm DONE!" part of this pregnancy. Question for the mamas that have given birth before. I feel like right now, I am going through the most physically challenging portion of having this baby in that my body is so sore all the time but I still have to go to work, and try to get stuff done around the house. Am I being naive to think that it will be easier once the baby is here and I have my body back to myself? I know the first few days or weeks will be hard because I'll be sore and recovering from birth but I'm not expecting to be bed-bound and lots of people keep making comments like "How are you going to take care of the other kids after you have the baby?" Am I missing something? I survived this past week of working from home full-time while also caring for them (cooking, cleaning, referring fights, etc.) while feeling like crap. I know that I will be spending a lot of time nursing the baby but I also won't be needing to work 8 hours a day on the computer. Am I in La-La Land?


You get back to "normal" pretty quickly.  I think by 3-4 days after DD was born, I was up and moving around just fine, even with recovering from some tearing.  The first day was hard to move, I felt like I'd been put thru the wringer and hit by a truck all at once, but it faded quickly.  I remember taking DD to the pediatrician 5 days after she was born, and feeling just fine.  I feel for you for still having to work.  I worked FT with DD's pg and there is just NOTHING as exhausting as having to get up and go and be there.

 

I'm done with my PT job now, but still, the HARDEST part of all of it was when that alarm would go off and I had to get up and get there.  Ugh. I cringe just thinking about it.  So, FWIW, I feel you.

 



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While I don't necessarily believe in signs, I do believe in listening to your instincts. If you feel like something isn't right, even if you don't know why, it's probably a good idea to avoid it. You'll have to explain to me again what the issue is with your platelets being low and what PPH is again. It's not quite the same as iron-deficient anemia like I have, right? Is there anything you can do to try to get the level to rise? I just read a little bit about it. It seems to have the same complication as anemia, the possibility of excessive bleeding after birth. If I had gotten my hemoglobin up by taking the liquid iron, I would have risked out of a homebirth for that reason. You aren't taking anything that would thin your blood, are you? Would taking vitamin K or drinking alfalfa tea or something like that help? I don't know if that affects platelets directly but it does help the blood to clot.

I'm a big proponent of homebirth. You guys know that. However, I do understand that there are times when a hospital birth is necessary. Neither way guarantees a live, healthy baby, though. It doesn't sound like this puts Finn in any danger. It's you that would be in danger from excess bleeding after birth, right? From the little bit I just read about low platelets, there isn't a definitive consensus on what number is dangerously low. Obviously, though, if your MW won't attend you, you have to accept that.


Well if my platelets are low, it's a no brainer for me, a non-decision.  I'll do what I have to do and give birth in the hospital.  I think I've come to terms with that, still working on it around the edges, but it's ok with me.  That's the way the cookies crumble sometimes.

 

I've been doing a few dietary things but they haven't helped.  Everything I was doing didn't seem to make a difference b/c the count fell.  So, I'm still doing what I was doing, but I have no idea if it'll make any difference.  I am going to start taking floradix again though, b/c that can't hurt, and my iron levels themselves were borderline low.  So, that's that.  I'll do what I can.  I'm not taking anything at all that would be thinning my blood.  I'll look into the whole vit k thing, that's something i hadn't thought of.

 

The platelet thing woudn't affect Finn at all, it would be my risk.  It's all about the possibility of hemorrhage.  But, the thought in the back of my mind is of course, what IF something is going to go wrong with Finn and being at the hospital is the right place? 

 

Part of me is almost afraid if my platelets are above 100 and I go forth with the homebirth, I'll get caught up thinking something is going to go wrong the whole time.

 

Balls.  It's just on my mind.  I'll have to wait and see I suppose about the platelets, but either way I have to just be at peace with whatever comes to pass.  If I stay home then that's where I'm meant to be, and if not, then the hospital is where I'm meant to be.

 

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Getting out of bed every morning when my back, hips and pelvis are SO sore is the hardest part for me. But then sitting at my desk all day is no picnic either. It was hard working from home last week, more mentally than anything else, but at least I could go lay down for a few minutes if I didn't feel good.

 

Thanks for your input ladies on what I should expect afterwards. I guess it all depends on what type of birth we end up having. I know that if I have a c-section, taking care of the kids at first will be hard. Doing anything will be hard I'm sure. But if it's just a normal vaginal birth, I don't see why I won't be back to normal in a few weeks. My DH will take a couple of weeks off when the baby is born so he'll be home if her birth coincides with when the kids are home. We don't have stairs in our house so nothing to worry about there. I will probably need to keep an eye on the laundry but DH is pretty good about doing that if needed. I just hope I'm not glossing over how hard it's going to be because I'm so looking forward to having my body back, you know?

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But, the thought in the back of my mind is of course, what IF something is going to go wrong with Finn and being at the hospital is the right place?

That's something I don't know about. I can't know if it's an unfounded fear you are having or if it's a real instinctual knowledge. Only you can figure that out, I guess. Do you have any specific reasons why you are worried about this?

I sometimes have fears that pop into my head but nothing that is strong enough or sticks around long enough for me to take too seriously. Like, for some reason the thought of having this baby early keeps popping into my head. I don't think I thought of that so much with my other pgs. I think it's more a fear about where I would go if that happened. I didn't have any qualms about going to the Naval hospital when I was pg with ds3 but I also hadn't had any experience or interaction with anyone there. Since that one time I went to L&D when I was sick and dehydrated, I've felt less confident about going there. I just did not like the vibe I got. I'd still go there rather than the civilian hospital but I am not as comfortable with it.
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Nope.  No reason at all to feel this way.  Just the whole "lightning striking twice" thing.  I had one good successful homebirth and I'm paranoid that I won't get lucky again.  It's completely irrational.  I'm in great health, baby looks good, growing great, I'm in good hands and trust my midwife 110%.  Just me being a paranoid freak, I think.

 

My instincts tell me everything will be fine.  With my education and knowledge about birth, I'm going into this with both eyes wide open.  I know what to expect and what I'm doing.  It's just that nagging doubt that I won't get lucky twice.  That's all.  It's dumb.

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