How is everyone doing?
We're doing pretty great over here. Ezrah is 5 days old now and we're starting to settle into somewhat of a rhythm instead of the free for all of the first couple of days. Being at home helps, and having the big kids at camp helps even more. I miss them, but it's been an amazing gift to have these few days to get settled in and focus on baby instead of trying to deal with bored big kids and figure out nursing, sleeping, etc.
I actually don't feel all that sleep-deprived either. I take a long nap during the day with him, and since we're co-sleeping and breast-feeding there's not a whole lot of waking up at night. Plus, he'll sleep for a 3-4 hour stretch after doing a marathon nursing session so between the 2 hour chunk of sleep, dozing while he nurses and then sleeping hard during that longer stretch I'm actually getting more sleep now than I was when I was pregnant!
We had some issues with latching on properly and that combined with his really high palate it was KILLING my nipples. I tried a different technique to get him to latch on and that's made a huge difference. I was to the point where I would nurse him and the pain would go shooting through my breast all the way to my back. It was excruciating. I called the LC at the hospital in tears and we talked about what could be going on. My nipples had started to bleed right in the center of each one and they were so tender that each time he latched on and started nursing it was terrible. I talked to her and actually had an appointment to go in that same afternoon, and then I went online to kellymom.com and looked up latching issues. They had some pictures on how to get baby to latch on better and I tried it and it worked!
My poor nipples are still healing, and there is still that few seconds of ohmigodthishurts! every time I nurse, but it's vastly improved and I don't dread nursing him like I was starting to. This is good news because he's started nursing more often the last day or so.
We also had his first pediatrician visit yesterday. It went well, he's down to 6 lbs 15 oz from his birth weight of 7 lbs 4.5 oz. I think that has more to do with the fact that he was soooo sleepy the first couple of days and he would fall asleep after nursing for 5 minutes and sleep hard for so long that I couldn't get him to wake up enough to latch on and nurse. I think he'll catch back up soon, but we're going back next week so the ped can make sure he's doing okay. He also has a little bit of newborn jaundice, but I think it's already starting to resolve. The sclera of his eyes is already looking less yellow near the pupils. I think it helps that we've been going outside for a little while every day.
I just can't explain how totally in love with him I am. I didn't have this experience with my other kids. With Kaleb I was 19 years old and so totally overwhelmed by everything that it literally took me 3 months before I stopped expecting his real mother to walk through the door and claim her baby. With Hannah I had a 17 1/2 month old toddler, a drug-addict husband, and a huge pile of financial worries. And then my husband and I separated when she was only 10 weeks old. I didn't get to really enjoy either of them being a newborn. It was too scary and hard and stressful for me. With Ezrah I feel like I can finally just be and soak him in. I spend hours every day just staring at him. I am totally amazed that this tiny perfect being came from me. I am endlessly fascinated by his facial expressions and the little noises that he makes and the way that he moves his little body. I love the way he feels curled up on my chest and in my arms. I wish I could bottle this time for when he's older because I know that I won't remember every second and I so want to. Thank goodness for iPhones with cameras and video because with technology I can keep part of that for always.