I think i have ppd. What happens now? - Page 2

[texmati]

Originally Posted by Mosaic 

{{hug}} I'm sorry I didn't see this earlier. I was like you: severely depressed for a long time, avoided meds for a long long time, until I finally gave up and tried them. To say it was like night and day is a gross understatement. Within two weeks, I was bawling my eyes out, only this time it was because I felt like myself again. I hope the same is true for you!

Mosaic, thank you so much. Your posts on my threads over the years have given me so much hope. I can't express how grateful I am to you.

I filled my perscription this evening and will be taking the first dose tonight. I feel like I've been dealing with this ever since I got married-- I realized as I was driving home from the pharmacy that I was actually excited to meet the 'real' me. :(. Here's praying for a smooth transition on and off this drug.

[Filiz Dolar]

Hi Texmati,

I hope you are feeling better, I was just wondering if you could give us an update?

[texmati]

I'm so sorry! I've been meaning to update! I started taking the zoloft (which ended up costing a whopping 5 dollars for a 30 day supply) exactly 3 weeks ago today. For me, it seemed the effect was instantaneous! I have energy! I was worried about being on 'happy pills', but really the difference is that I can be annoyed instead of enraged; disappointing instead of devastated, or mad instead of a murderous rage. I have thought about it so much-- there was no way to explain to my former self what I was missing--- it was like the world was black and white instead of color. How can you explain the richness of life that was missing, when it had been so long since I had felt it?

Practically; I've lost about 5 pounds without really trying, started exercising, have started cooking meals, and rolling around on the floor with my kids. I became so active the first week, that I over did it and threw my back out.

Thank you thank you thank you to all those who posted here and encouraged me.

The last few days I find myself becoming more frustrated than usual, and I've had some headaches and drowsiness-- but I no longer lay down on a daily basis and wish to stop breathing. I will never again go back to that for as long as I live, god help me.

Edited by texmati - 7/29/11 at 8:47pm

[Mosaic]

[FischK]

Great news! Hope things continue to improve.