I almost feel like I'm just incapable of life. My awesome, energetic son is, IMO, extremely high maintaince, he still breastfeeds every hour to hours. He still wakes up several times a night, has become a picky eater and throws massive temper tantrums all day long. My husband help a lot, and both of us are completely EXHAUSTED! I really wan to give our son a sibling but my husband is scared too now consider how hard this journey has been thus far. I love the AP route, didn't really feel like I had a choice, it just came so natural, but sometimes I'm jealous of people who get to have kids who just kinds sit there sometimes and parents that do not feel guilty about formulas feeding, when they didn't have to, or watching TV, or leaving their kids with just "okay" baby sitter. My standards for my son are high, I know that I expected it to be harder if I did not, but OMG. My brain is "fried" form the lack of sleep and I'm fearing a major burn out that could last the rest of my parenting career.
I hate night time nursing, its uncomfortable, and I remember every wake up. My kid hasn't slept more than 3 hours since birth, and all along this I'm plagued with guilt because I feel so fortunate to have a healthy son
I have read EVERY book and have very little help other than my husband
When does it get easier???