Sort of new here, at least to the dating thread. Not too much going on right now, although since the last time I visited this thread(it was May and I was feeling very jealous of some of you dating single mamas:-P) I have come out of my funk to a good degree. I am trying to watch what I eat, and trying to do my sun salutation and freewriting every morning(just two small things that dont take up too much time that make me feel good about myself). Not last weekend but the Sunday before, I woke up and decided to go for a run. I alternately ran and walked for about an hour and a half, pushing myself as hard as I could. THIS IS NOT A USUAL THING FOR ME, lol, it's just that I had been down for awhile and I needed a physical reminder that I was still alive, and it really kickstarted me into some better habits, and just woke me up a bit! The kids were with their dad that day, so I tried to get some stuff done, and took a nice nap at some point. Later my friend and I got all dressed up and went out to this local rockabilly type bar, and I felt so good. I felt energetic, and like MYSELF. Like I said I got all dressed up, and felt beautiful. I didn't feel awkward and I was keeping my mind on the future, and therefore not anxious about the present. And it was amazing the attention I got. There were these two guys in particular, neither of which really matter, since I didn't get their numbers or anything, but the point is that it reaffirmed for me how when you are feeling good about yourself, guys notice that. Since then, I've been thinking about this guy I used to go out with last year, as he kind of randomly msg'd me and it got me thinking about him, and how im in a much different place in my life and would it be worth another try and all that, hmmmm, lol!
To answer your ??? I was just thinking about this today, and for me, the best part about being single is having the freedom to change. To quote Lady Gaga 'and when things fall out of place, I take my time, i put them back, i touch myself till im on track'. I love that line because I remember being in a relationship (granted, not a good one) and feeling like I was stuck as the person he saw me as and trying to change felt pointless. Im sure its different in a good relationship, but there is always that factor of someone else perceiving you in a certain way, and having to push against that to make progress in your personal growth.
The thing I like least is just being so limited, financially. I don't have a car, my ex doesn't pay child support, or hasnt in awhile at least, and I would love to partner up with someone(even just a friend, as housemates) because there are so many things that are just out of my reach. I mean even trying to go the the beach is a challenge with no car, lol. Im lucky to have a few close friends to fill in the gaps, but still it'd be nice to have a partner, in the true sense of the word. That said, i'd like to add is that I feel like I have alot of love and affection to give, and if I could find someone that I mesh well with, and vice versa, well, I feel I could make someone very happy. I'd like to find a partner while I am young and feel beautiful and sexy. I worry that physically, i'm wasting the best years of my life alone. I know people fall in love during all times of their lives, but I would like to be youngish still when I find someone that I can't be without.
So that's where I'm at...Hopefully I'll have more to tell you ladies soon, lol, but we'll see. It's challenging dating as a single mom, but I'm feeling hopeful:-)