I am excited to be pregnant. I can't wait for my first appt to hear the baby's heartbeat. DP and I are really happy about our new addition.
BUT, I am miserable. I'm 9 weeks, and starting at 5 weeks, I've had pretty debilitating morning sickness, every possible digestive issue, headaches, and insomnia. We just gave up on nightweaning my 22 month old DD after 2 weeks of progressively less and less sleep for both her and me. I'm scared to drive because I'm so tired. I feel so guilty about how poorly I'm taking care of my child. We pretty much stay at home all day. I watch TV on the sofa like a loser. DP and I got pregnant about a week after we decided to "not not try" with expectations that it would take longer, and now I'm feeling like we didn't wait long enough. We're also in the process of getting our house ready to put on the market, which is energy consuming but not stressful. We have a weeklong trip planned when I'll be 13 weeks along, and I'm just dreading having to fly while feeling like this and take care of my child who does not travel well.
I know things will get better the second trimester, but it's been really hard for me physically and emotionally. I'm mostly just really really really tired. I've been averaging about 4 hours of really interrupted sleep, like 15 minute increments. I feel like there isn't anyone IRL that I can lean on or who can help me. My husband is wonderful. He makes me sandwiches at 3 am, cleans the kitchen while I nap, takes DD to the playground for me, etc.
Anyone else feel happy but really miserable?