I'm 9 months out from my last birth, and feeling mentally ready to talk/ask questions about it.
Quick background: I've been pregnant 3 times. The first time, I went to 16 weeks when I went into labor and vaginally delivered my first son. No cause found out. Second time, I was induced at 37 weeks for pre-e, after 22hrs of labor, getting to 7 cms and regressing, had a c/s. Ds was sunny side up, and some shaping of his head could be seen.
This last time around, I had prodromal labor for weeks. At 39weeks & something, I started getting regular contractions. After 24hrs in, they became 3-5 min apart. Went to the hospital, checked, told I was 3 cms but had to stay because I was a VBAC. Long story short, some bad stuff happened, I was panicky, horrible, horrible back labor (I thought I was being ripped apart). The waters breaking reminded me of when I had lost my first son as well.
At midnight (so 40 something hours into the whole ordeal), baby starts deceling at beginning of contractions and recovers at the end. This freaked dh and I out, but told it was normal. Then baby starts deceling after contractions. Changing positions, rubbing baby, etc, help bring it back up, but by this point I am done. I ask to be checked, only at 4 cms. Labeled FTP, c/s. Ds was born with an apgar of 1 or 2, but was fine after that. The surgeon said something about wedging (can't remember the correct word, but it's when the skull starts changing shape). He was sunny side up as well.
I'm not pregnant right now, just thinking of the future.
During surgery, my uterus looked good, no windows, tears, etc.
I'm wondering why the FTP both times with the posterior babies. Does this mean my pelvis isn't big enough?
Also, my contractions were crazy. 10 min apart (spaced out to that again), but intense. 2 minutes long, with 1 min at the peak intensity. Unlike my two other labors, where I was able to ride the waves, this was more like a tsunami. No riding it, just screaming my way through it.
And the looooooong labors. Ugh. I was exhausted both times, but especially after this last birth.
Should I even try for a VBA2C? Am I just one of those women who need c/s?
What could be behind all this? I'm scared to have another child. I have issues with surgery anyways, but the feeling of having failed at this last birth attributed somewhat to my horrible PPD this time around. But I want at least a couple more living children. But the surgery