First timer... man did my birth go the opposite from my wishes.
I prepped extensively with hypnobirthing, tons of yoga (I am a yoga instructor), lots of guided relaxation, husband was great at relaxing me.
A day after my due date I came down with Bells Palsy (half of my face is still paralyzed - they don't know when it will go away but most think it will just go away in time.) We headed to the ER thinking I was having a stroke and my BP spiked, but thankfully I and the baby were ok except that HELLO half of my face doesn't work which is really upsetting to me... i don't want any pics taken of me and the baby still.
So I ended up way overdue and was in a very weird place with the palsy and waiting for the baby to come.
Labor was way more intense than I expected which I think is due to what was going on in my uterus - the cord was tied in a true knot. The baby did not come down into the pelvis and no one thought much of it but it was definitely a warning sign in retrospect. I think he was protecting his cord. I labored very hard at home, cxns were 2 minutes apart and extremely painful. I had no way of dealing - my techniques went out the window.
Headed to the hospital and I was only 1-2 cm and not engaged! I couldn't imagine how long things would take and they were very assholish to me at the hospital because they didn't think I was really in serious labor.
I labored for a few hours there then asked to be checked again. Being hooked up to the monitor, thankfully my husband was watching it carefully. The heartrate descended to 96 in about 5 seconds and my husband flagged someone down, this was when the cord knot cinched. I was in the operating room in about ten minutes and had the c section.
So my husband being on the ball basically saved the baby's life and I'm so grateful. A few more minutes of distress and it would have been just totally awful.
I am healing quite well from the c section, and other than insane breastfeeding drama which we're working through, the baby is healthy and gaining and unaffected.
I have a lot of issues - I worked so hard to prepare and have difficulty with the identity piece of being someone who had a csection. I worked so hard to avoid it and there's something about all the yoga stuff... i don't know, i thought I was going to have this awesome birth, possibly UC at home...
I have been seeing my therapist again and plan to continue. I at first was feeling very traumatized by the whole thing. Now I'm feeling better but still, the bells palsy is awful and hanging around, and I hate being someone who had a c section (even though it's so silly - it saved my baby's life!)
I'm not sure how this forum works, I'm a first time visitor. I know I have healing to do. I at first could not imagine getting pregnant again but now I am at least open to it even though I'm still in the crazy first six weeks with my first baby. Thankfully we're 80% on the breast now, having worked through finger/tube feeding, boob/tube feeding, etc. I am still pumping around the clock and hey, it's time to pump right now.
Thanks for reading.