Hi mamas, this is my first post in the PPD thread. I think I have been battling with PPD for at least the past 6 months, probably longer. It is not diagnosed, but I the way I feel cannot be normal. He is 12.5 months old. I can't stand my son's crying. at all. If I am trying to get him down for a nap and he cries and won't stop crying and won't go to sleep, I yell at him. Not so much at him, but I get really angry. Okay, yeah, I yell at him. It scares me, because I don't mean to, and it's like I can't control it. And I'm afraid that if I can't control not yelling at him, what else am I going to do? Am I going to hit him? I don't trust myself alone with him. I've tried telling my husband this for the past six months and he just tells me I'm a great mom and that it's hard and that I'm doing great. I'm not doing great and I'm a terrible mom who is probably ruining her son's life.
I just don't know what to do. Do I see a doctor? A psychologist? What? What do I do? I need help but I don't know where to turn.