Heads up: This post might be triggering to anyone who has dealt with body image issues or eating disorders.
I'm having a hard time with the reality that I will gain weight during my pregnancy. I have had issues with body image, anorexia and compulsive exercising in the past. About a year before I got pregnant I finally felt "recovered" from a lot of this stuff, though I still had particularities about food and exercised lots.
I'm still teaching yoga, but my personal practice has really declined since I got pregnant. I just don't have the energy to practice daily. I've had pretty bad nausea and foods that I normally ate (i.e. tons of vegetables) became repulsive to me. In addition, before my pregnancy I was vegan and have since started eating meat and dairy again. Before my pregnancy I was at the low end of the normal weight range for my height. I'm not even 11 weeks yet and I've already gained 8 pounds. I think a lot of that weight gain is that my body isn't used to digesting animal products.
Intellectually, I understand that it is vitally important to my baby's health to gain (what seems to me to be) an enormous amount of weight. My midwife suggested I aim for closer to 35 than 25 pounds. After only 8 pounds my body seems quite fat to me. Frankly, I'm scared about gaining so much more weight and I'm scared about losing muscle tone. I'm not feeling like restricting calories, because I know my baby needs food. I guess I'm just looking for any advice about how to quell these negative, habitual feelings about my body so I can enjoy nourishing my baby instead of feeling grossed out and stressed about it.