I'm feeling super crazy right now. I vary between wanting to punch people in the face, and crying into my pillow. I've been dealing with ridiculous drama this week caused by my sister, who I was ready to disown prior to pregnancy, and now have decided I absolutely do not want in my life. I'm tired of making explanations for her, when I'm unhappy I do not lie to and manipulate people. And I've had to deal with the loss of my best friend to cancer three years ago, so I know unhappy. Also learned that I'm no longer willing to take crap from anyone, and she's the one person in my life that gives me a headache every time I'm near her.
I broke the news of my pregnancy on Mother's day, her reaction was to start crying and yelling at me for not being supportive of her with her wedding, which was last week. I had decided not to attend her wedding in Mexico because of the price, along with the fact that she and her fiance chose to befriend an ex-boyfriend of mine right after he cheated on me, (which all happened a few months prior to getting together with my current love almost two years ago) and ex was going to be the best man at their wedding. I'd really like for creepy ex to not be a part of my life. And it creeps me out that he's trying to be part of my family.
Now, come to find out he hooked up with my cousin in Mexico, who is eerily similar to me in both looks and personality (as is my sister, though I've always considered her the evil twin), and they want to try dating long distance. I can't help but feel completely skeeved out. It feels like a really creepy version of him trying to get me back, or get back at me for being pregnant and happy with someone new.
I just needed to vent this, it's been getting to me all week. And I'm tired of feeling like I should be on Jerry Springer,yelling at ex to just get out of my life for once and all.