I could really use someone to listen to me obsessing and give a second opinion about what is going on here. I've never been pregnant before and even in just these two weeks I feel like I'm being challenged emotionally in totally new ways.
As I wrote in the spotting thread, on Monday (6/13) I started spotting. It was just a light brown discharge on the toilet paper, a very tiny amount, never enough to show up on my undies or even a panty liner. A couple of days there was more of it than other days-- and it was closer to a dark brick red instead of just a light brown streak. But it was never enough to even necessitate a panty liner. Just on TP.
Well, it has continued. FOR SIX DAYS. Today and yesterday it's much, much less- barely noticeable really.
But it's still there- when I wipe, there's a slight streak of brown.
I've asked every woman I know who has had a baby if they spotted during early pregnancy. They all said "no, I didn't, a friend of mine did though and she miscarried".
So this last week I've felt so down, and so distrustful of my body-- it's a terrible feeling. I've never felt that way before. I'm really struggling here.
This is going to sound like a stupid question but... is it possible to miscarry slowly? Or is miscarriage ONLY a big obvious gush of blood?
On Friday I took a preg test just to reassure me. The line went dark immediately- a strong positive HPT. Is that a good sign? Or if I were miscarrying would that still happen?
augh. I've stopped feeling excited about this baby because I feel so uncertain about whether or not it will happen.
When typically can you hear the heartbeat? I'm going in 2 weeks for an US and I'm hoping to hear a heartbeat then. I'll be 8 weeks then. Is that too early to hear it?
Thanks for any thoughts or perspective on this. Sorry if I sound nuts here-- I FEEL nuts. I really appreciate you listening.