Very long story, short. Filed for d, separated a month. Three kiddos, 8, 5 and 2. 50/50 custody. No abuse issues, no cheating, we get along well now for the most part, just not happy and a LOT of fighting and tension before the move. Wow! That was super short.
Anyhow, here I am. When I don't have the kids with me I miss them so much, I feel like I'm going crazy. I absolutely HATE it. What do I do with all this time? My husband is a teacher, so he has them all day every day for these 12 weeks in the summer and I work full-time, daylight hours on weekdays. Even though I see them every day, even on the days I don't have them, I feel like I'm missing so so much. So much so it's affecting every part of my life. I mean, these kids ARE my life, so I don't have much else. I know I should spend time with friends, but either they all have kids of their own and are busy working too or they're not close.
I've got all the regular worries (I think) about no one ever loving me again, being too old to ever find someone who is interested in me (I am 36) and all that stuff that I don't even know what to think. I am a jangly shaky anxiety-ridden bundle of nerves all the time. Is this normal? I don't know anyone irl who has ever been through a divorce, certainly not with three kids.
Can someone please, please tell me if this is normal? Is it okay? When does it stop? How did you handle it?