I'm between 5 and 9 weeks pregnant, my first ultrasound isn't till July 11th. I really had my heart set on a midwife assisted birth, I didn't care where, in a hospital, birthing center or home. DH is really against a home birth, but that doesn't really matter anymore.
All the midwives in my area are 3+ hours away. I'v contacted the 2 closest ones and Both of them very nicely congratulated me and invited me for a consult at their centers, and welcomed me to birth at their centers. But neither one can come to me or my near by hospital. DH and I are both unsure about driving 3+ hours during labor, and not to mention all the gas for prenatal care.
I can't think of any other option that to go to the hospital, which is the very last thing I wanted. How do I make sure to have a natural birth and not get "assistance" pushed on me. This is our first child, and my family might not be here for the birth, and even DH might be deployed, we wont know for sure for another few months, but his name is up for deployment.
I'm just terrified and heat broken. Any info or advice is greatly appreciated.