I've been feeling really down on myself for my growing size, too. I'm at the halfway point in my pregnancy and it feels like so many body changes are rapidly taking place now, I'm not adjusting well. In the beginning of my 2nd trimester, I had this confidence I don't think I've ever had in my life. I was loving my little low baby bump, I was feeling better emotionally after that hell of a first trimester, and my sex drive went through the roof. My poor husband was probably sick of me, LOL. And up until about week 17, I had only gained 5 lbs (I started out overweight so this was good). Then the cravings suddenly hit and I went crazy... The overeating became so rampant, but I think it's because I had suddenly been able to eat anything I wanted. I've had food intolerances to dairy and gluten for the past several years and needless to say - it felt like a miracle happened and I wanted to eat EVERYTHING I had been missing out on that whole time when the intolerances suddenly went away. Pregnancy really CAN do amazing things! So now I've jumped up in weight gain a lot in a mere few weeks and don't recognize myself. I hate how I feel, I am angry with my lack of self control, and I have only exercised a handful of times in the past 4 months. Exercise, even walking, is so uncomfortable for me... I so miss being able to do my dance workouts and run comfortably on the elliptical and take long walks outside. I'm afraid I'm just going to gain a ton of weight... And want to hear the most frightening thing? I'm the maid of honor in my friend's wedding in October. I'll be 8 months along, YIKES!
I want to find that confidence I had earlier in the pregnancy when I really loved my pregnant body. I still love my growing chest but other than that, not so much... I'm thankful to have a husband who constantly tries to encourage me, tells me, "It's okay, you're PREGNANT!" and tries to help me calm down my insecurities since he doesn't feel any of that negative stuff towards me that I worry about. But I think my grandma's comment to me in my first trimester to watch my calories really planted a seed that has been gnawing at me.
I can't wait to meet my baby and then spend my maternity leave taking care of her and feeling more comfortable in my own skin!