First-time mama to a bundle of joy who is just 5 days old now. What I'm wondering is this. All through pregnancy and all through her short life so far, I have had two tracks running in my head. One is that things will probably be just fine because usually things are just fine. The other is freaking out about all the rare things that could happen. When I was pregnant it was all "What if the heart stops beating and I don't find out for weeks" and "What if there are birth defects" and "What if the fact that I haven't felt her move in a little while is a problem" and "What if she dies during birth" or whatever. Now she's here and healthy, but it's all what about SIDS or some sort of weird disorder surfacing or whatnot. And I'm sure in a few years it's going to be bike accidents and kidnappers and I know not what. Usually I can get the rational track to take the lead, and it's not stopping me from enjoying my gorgeous wonderful child, but I do wonder, is it always going to be like this? Is this just what parenthood is? Am I going to overprotect her out of worry later, or does every parent feel like this and have to quell it?
I know I'm postpartum and hormonal and sleep-deprived and I suppose you could make a case that before I was pregnant and hormonal (though I don't think that hormones have been significantly altering my mood before or after birth). And I'm not about to freak out now about my levels of worry (oh, the irony). I guess I just want to collect data. If my level of worry is comparable to other people's then I'm okay, but if I'm way more so than the norm then maybe I should get counseling one of these years before I end up having negative effects on my kid(s).
So, where are you at on the paranoia continuum? What's "normal"?