JMJ and Marykgrove: Congratulations!!! Sticky bean vibes to you both!
Farmygirl: Welcome to the board! I am totally with on the desire to make TTC a stressful process. I stopped temping for the past few months because I didn’t like how being so aware of exactly where I was in my cycle was making me think about it all the time. We were NTNP during that period and it was fairly stress free, which I really liked. Now we’re officially TTC (as of yesterday, see below), and I’m still unsure as to whether or not I want to temp. I took a temp this morning and wrote it down just in case I’m so moved again tomorrow, but I’m leaning towards not wanting to know. (Then again, I sometimes think maybe I should temp every day just in case it takes us a long time TTC, and we want to show some history to a healthcare provider. Ugh – I can’t decide, so for now, I’m just trying to take it one day at a time when it comes to temping.)
Beachlove: This past weekend, I woke up to the most vivid dream that I had just taken a pregnancy test. That was what pushed me to testing when I had planned to just wait for AF to be late after getting a negative result earlier in the week. That test was also negative, unfortunately, but I was sooo sure that it would be positive and that the dream was my body’s way of telling me lol. Sorry your pregnancy dream didn’t end with a positive test, but I hope this next cycle is THE cycle for you – with or without the dreams :-)
N&A: Yay for a happy wedding day! Glad AF departed in the nick of time, and I love the pics!
Date: July 12
Chart: I haven’t been charting the last few months while we were NTNP, but I might start this month – still wavering. If I do, I probably won’t put the temps in until the end of the month, so no need to share, since it’ll be empty for the most part.
Where are you in your cycle: CD2
Symptoms if they apply: Wanting to go home and curl up on the couch with a movie and junk food. AF drains me of energy sometimes.
Thoughts: Well, this is CD2 for me. I did test on Saturday even though I was pretty sure that AF was on the way, and she showed up right on time yesterday. I would have been ecstatic with a BFP, but, even though I was definitely disappointed, I wasn’t as upset as I thought I’d be. When I really thought about it, for the last couple years, DH and I had been talking about waiting to try no earlier than July or August, because given my husband’s work schedule, a baby due between late spring and early fall would be best – otherwise, because of how busy he is during the rest of the year, there would be no guarantees that he could be really hands on in the early months, and there would have been the very real possibility that he’d be scheduled for trips around the due date. So, even though we scrapped the plan a few months back and decided to NTNP, we’ve basically ended up living our original plan by circumstance because of how crazy things have been with work and move for us both. So that rationalization helped keep me from being super sad about two negative tests last week.
In happier news, we are now officially TTC! We had originally agreed to give it till the end of the summer before making that decision, but DH brought up yesterday over dinner, and I was all for it! Secretly, I’ve been having a harder time with the not trying aspect of it, especially whenever DH would tell me that he’d have to work later on X number of days, and I would automatically start figuring out what day that was in my cycle. For the last two months, every time DH or I had to be out of town, or work late, it has coincided with my peak fertility window, and it was really hard for me to take that in stride – NTNP is not fun when you go into knowing there’s not going to be much to prevent because of circumstances totally out of our control. So, even though it takes some of the mystery and spontaneity out of whole thing, I’m excited to see how it goes this month now that DH specifically asked to know what days he needs to try to be free (and I think he is, too)! I just hope neither of us is too disappointed if it doesn’t work out this month – I think I read once that even when the timing is absolutely perfect, there’s still only a 20 to 30% chance of conceiving. I really don’t want TTC to be a stressful thing for us, and I know it’s pretty easy to get caught up in the timing of everything to the point where trying stops being fun. At any rate, we’re planning to aim for days 8,10,12,14, and 16 this month, which should hopefully give us plenty of wiggle room if I O on the earlier or later side of my normal day 15. Does that sound like a reasonable plan? DH wondered why we didn't just aim for day 15, but I'd rather aim a day before and day after, and still have day 15 available if we miss a day, rather than aim for the odd days (13, 15) and possibly miss out altogether if we have to miss a day.