you know our kids each have their thing.
dd is a deep thinker. has always been. its her personality.
we have had a lot of existential thoughts since seh was 2 1/2. reincarnation, the idea of spirit, that death is not the end has always been present in dd since she first started talking about this topic.
most of my answers were i dont really know for sure. i dont know if anyone knows for sure. at that time i was not involved in any kind of religious life.
by 3 i started looking and found meditation. and dd chose to go with me and she started too with meditation at 3. she'd start meditating with us and then fall asleep. again it wasnt really religious.
i really have thoroughly enjoyed that aspect of dd's personality. i think that has helped us bond soo deeply. we've had long talks about what/how things could be. mainly coz i told her i have no clue, when i admitted i myself am not sure where i stand.
at 4 when someone tried telling dd in the middle of her tantrum that god would be upset by her behaviour and punish her, she yelled back 'my mom would never do that to me, so why would god do that. he loves all of us and my god would never get angry and punish'.
for us those very thoughts has helped dd interact with other kids even though she doesnt really fit in with them. it has hugely helped her deal with bullies (though her understanding of bullies came from Bridge to Terabithia) and others who she feels are unkind towards anyone. morality is huge for her and that is what also makes her really upset. and thus adds to her anxiety and so having meditation is really helpful to her.
also our lives itself provided a practise ground for dd. from 4 to 5 she actively helped me take care of her dying gparents. she was there holding their hand as they passed. she saw the beauty of death and it has definitely had a v. subtle but huge impact on her. she did see her first dead body at 3 (our neighbour) and i think that really helped her not be afraid of it. 'mama she looked so calm, she looked like she was sleeping.' it moved her deeply and made her understand there is more to death than just being gone.
however i will say i dont quite understand what existentialism truly means. and i may be stretching the definition here.