I had a 2nd degree perineal tear with a nuchal hand birth 5 months ago. My CNM stitched me up, but I was still having pain and tenderness at my 6 wk checkup. She said that was normal, but it never felt "right" again, and the discomfort continued. I went back for my yearly exam yesterday, learned the tear never healed right, and now I might have to get reconstructive surgery. I have a consult with a surgeon next week.
Has anyone ever dealt with a similar problem? Did you finally recover and what was it like?
I'm horrified. Will my vagina ever be the same? Does this mean things will get even worse if I have another vaginal birth? I was in tears on the way home and have been depressed and scared ever since.