When my son was about 7 months old I decided to start taking zoloft. I'm weaning from zoloft now and I'm seeing some of my same symptoms/issues come back. It's making me think the depression was more situational and less hormonal. The problem is, the "situation" is the SAHM lifestyle. Which, in my head, is what I want for my child. It's always been my plan. I think it's best.
I'm a little bummed that it doesn't seem that, mentally, being a full-time SAHM isn't cutting it for me. Which, I guess is not too surprising for someone who isn't a total stranger to depression.
I really don't know what to do though. The thought of baby sitters and day care doesn't sit right with me. (Plus, money is so tight right now.) I'm new to the area, so I don't even have anyone to ask for childcare recommendations. We have no family here to help out.
I'm not even sure what I would do if I did have childcare. I don't want a regular job. We could be moving at any time this summer. (dh is trying to get a different job) I'm an artist, so just time to work on my art or teach a class would be cool. So, finding someone to watch him for just a handful of hours a week sounds kinda challenging too. Ugh.