Ever since I was a teenager, I have had depression during summer, coming to a head in August. I get stir-crazy, bi-polar almost. I have even run away from home when I was 17. 2 days into my Senior year! I still very strongly feel the urge to leave when August hits but I don't, of course, I have my own family now. 2 years ago things got so bad for me and I started having some bad panic attacks. Heart palpitations, panic, strong urge to run. I thought something bad was wrong with my heart and after tests found out it was anxiety. I also have borderline personality disorder (and I hate the name, bc it sounds like I have a boring personality lol) which I think stems from my childhood.
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Anyway, while I still hate and dread summer, the next two summers and August after all the anxiety attacks were pretty decent. No bad urges to leave, rare attacks,...I have 2 close friends who understand anxiety and one has a psych degree and once I talked things out and worked them out in my head, everything calmed. There is a huge difference in my head now than even 2 years ago. I guess once I realized what was "wrong" with me every year and tried to work through it, it got so much better. Here we are nearing August and I am not feeling that horrible dread and the need to run off forever.
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I never have figured out exactly why this one part of the year is so bad...I always hated school but I graduated 16 years ago(oh wow!) so why would *that* still affect me? Welp in any case, I seemed to have worked through it and life is so much easier to deal with. I still have some anxiety, like now two of my homeschooled kids are going to public school this year and I'm expecting a baby around the same time, but I am handling it pretty well compared to how I would have years ago.
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I never went on any meds for this, either, as I am scared of things like that. If it had not gotten better and kept getting worse, I'd have thought about it. Sometimes keeping busy helps. Loud music helps. Going out with my husband without the kids helps.(mine are old enough to stay home alone). And talking...talk about it! Not just typing...but have a friend meet you somewhere peaceful without the kids and talk about it.