Hello! I guess I was just hoping for insight, or maybe hoping for hope! I start Clomid any day now- waiting on AF! I'm so down and feel like everything has beat me and my DH down! Long story short, I'm 31 and DH is 30. I've possibly been pregnant once - miscarriage at like week 5 or 6 about 7 years ago. THey were not 100% that I was pregnant (long story). Anyway, been going through all the fertility testing over the last 10 months or so. Had to go through biopsy's and all sorts of fun things b/c the lining of my uterus is so thick (nothing wrong with me, thank God). But they figure out I don't ovulate. I'm thinking not the end of the world b/c they can make me ovulate. The not so good news would be that something else is wrong, don't completely understand - but the hormones of whatever that makes us produce eggs is really low w/ me and there is nothing they can do to fix that part. Not a lost cause but they are saying I've only got months- if I want to get pregnant we are going straight to Clomid for 2-3 months. If I'm not pregnant within that time they want to go straight to artificial insemination... I'm thinking I can handle this... thats only about $1000.00 (I can skip a house payment right?!?! It would SOOOO be worth it and I can get it caught back up. But then they say they will only try that for a few months and then go straight to IVF... I could sell my house and I still wouldn't be able to pay the price of that. And no, can't get a loan either.... So maybe if that was all that was wrong I could handle it. But of course, thats not all thats wrong. My husband over the last year has lost 100% of his sex drive. They are testing him too... sperm count and all that are okay, not good, but good enough per my doctor. BUT his testosterone level is 92 and normal LOW is 241. NOt good. So we want to get him on testosterone shots- but can't do that if you are TTC.... so now he sees a urologist who is testing 9 million other things (Lutenizing hormone, prolactin, FSH and Testosterone again)... thinks it could be related to his pituitary gland.  So, we wait. Waiting is hard when they have given you a 10% chance of conceiving- and are telling you if it's going to happen, it has to be in the next few months.Â
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So I'm stuck. I've wanted children my ENTIRE life, my DH wants children. But what do I do? My husband says maybe we should go straight to Artificial Insemination while we are working out our other problems. But I'm sitting here thinking NO! Maybe all we have to do is fix him (I want my husband back) and then we will get pregnant. But if I wait, it may never happen for us? I don't know what to do. DH goes Monday for all the new tests and if they find what they think they are going to find I guess they will put him on medication to fix the pituitary gland issue - and God willing, I will get my husband back. I feel like nothing is working in our favor. A 10% chance?!??! That nearly broke me. But then I figured it out. With God, I either have a 100% chance, or a 0% chance. No such thing as a 10% chance.Â
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I guess I'm hoping someone will tell me they didn't have much of a chance and the Clomid came through for them. And maybe someone else has experience w/ what is going on w/ my DH... and you can tell me there is hope too! More than anything, I'd just appreciate your prayers~! Thanks for listening to me. This is so hard.
