I've been dealing with depression since I sprouted breasts (no correlation, I don't think!).
Depression is paralyzing first and foremost. I don't know if yours is ppd or if you've been living with it for a long time, but I'll tell you what I do and maybe it will help??
True thoughts: depression is like some sort of mental addiction - lousy thoughts are easily held onto and positive thoughts are as transient as vapor.
1) In the morning I tell myself true thoughts: I don't hate myself. I'm not 'stuck' here. I am LOVED. My husband and my baby boy and my family see worth in me and adore me.
2) When I find myself obsessing over negative issues I stop myself as soon as I can (sometimes that's 2 hours of self-loathing, sometimes it's 4 minutes) and BREATH. and say "LET IT GO" I hear my negative thoughts. I argue against them. I remind myself of my hormonal imbalances. I remind myself that the more I give into each battle the more difficult it becomes for me to fight the next one.
3) I'm also hypoglycemic so sometimes my nerves are easily calmed with a spoon of peanut butter and a glass of milk...
It's hard to get out.
I fight feeling pathetic simply because I feel no strong passion for anything anymore. I struggle with a healthy sense of self and I'm fighting off an eating disorder... the easiest thing for me is to focus on hours of the day. For the time being, I'm trying very hard to live in the present and try to get through the day.
Running helps when I'm dealing with rage, but getting out there is NEVER easy.
Not sure if I helped, but if you need to vent I'm definitely here to listen.