Well I guess the title says it all. I am really starting to loose steam here. My girls are such sweet babies and I think our biggest issue is sleep. They are still up to nurse constantly - like every 2-3 hrs. They are well established on solids and weigh 20 lbs so I do not feel as though it is a hunger issue. I can't sleep through their nursing and so when you multiple that times two, I am being woken up 5-8 times a night. On top of that they are terrible with naps. I will spend 45 minutes rocking one and then get that one asleep, start on the next one and by the time the second one is asleep the first one is back up. They nap twice a day plus bedtime so spending 4+ hrs a day rocking babies for them to sleep crappy is really getting to me. I've tried a consistent routine, consistent times to go down, shhing, patting, etc. I am starting to feel like letting them cry is my only option and I really do not want to do that. My husband is also beyond over it and we fight constantly about letting them cry... b/c he thinks that we've tried everything else. In all of this I have a poor, neglected three year old who has learned to fetch her own snacks, food, and play by herself.
I don't really know what the point of my post is, really other than to vent. I feel so very alone in all of this twin thing and trying my hardest to be AP. Most of my IRL friends are not AP and so I can't vent to them b/c the advice will be to let them cry. And now my hubby and I are fighting so much about it bc he thinks I am being ridiculous (his words)
Today I really hate having twins though. I feel like I should be more together than this by this point.