41+2 today. Cleaned the house again, took the kids to a movie, which wasn't very comfortable lots of contractions and felt nauseous half way through. Thank god it was a short movie. Got home and of course contractions calmed down. Did I mention I seem to have gotten a hemorrhoid, which I didn't understand since I haven't had any washroom issues, so I looked it up and it can be caused from the pressure of the baby being low. I'm crossing my fingers hoping this is why.
I'm scheduled for an induction on Wednesday 41+5, I don't think I can do it. I only know how to do a home water birth, plus the whole idea of a hospital birth and trying to make my body do something makes me panic and think of PAIN. As much as I want this one out I don't want to be induced even more. I'm trying desperately to surrender to the pregnancy and trust that everything will work, hoping I will relax enough to get things going.