I have had an amazing job offer to manage a raw/grain free dog food store which is scheduled to open August 15th. The job kinda came along by accident in the sense I wasn't really out looking for a job. I am new to the Omaha area (My husband is in the Air Force and we are currently stationed here) so I was looking for a place to by my dog's food. I happened to walk into this store about 6 weeks ago and got to talking with the manager there. When I lived in California, before I got pregnant, I worked in a store very similar to this one and absolutely loved it! It's more than just "selling dog food" it's educating people on the importance of feeding their animals biologically correct, natural foods. So many people are turning toward holistic/green/organic living, which is so wonderful! But so many of those people forget about their pets. Stores like these are out there to educate the public so hopefully one day grain/corn/animal-by-product dog and cat foods with be non existent.
Anyways, They asked me if I was looking for a job and I told them no at that point, but let me know if they end up opening the new store in August because I might be ready to work part time by then. Over the past 6 weeks I've thrown around the idea of going back to work to give myself something else to do and find a little bit of myself again instead of just being a 24/7 mom. I have no family in this part of the country and I have only made 2 friends since I've been here, both of which have children and don't have much time or desire to get together. I have found I become very overwhelmed very quickly with my high maintenance 6 month old and more often than not I am frustrated by the end of the day when my husband gets home from work. My ds doesn't sleep through the night...not even close. Then doesn't like to nap and sometimes I spend the better part of my day rocking him to sleep just to have him wake up 10 min later. This causes a VERY cranky/tired baby and frustrated mom.
When I went in for the interview it was just a general interview for one of a few positions available for the new store opening. To my surprise they called yesterday to congratulate me and ask me to run the new store (which happens to be on base where my husband works). This is such an awesome opportunity for me since I do not have a college degree and do not plan on being a housewife/sahm forever. I think managing my own store would look awesome on my resume! Every logical thing inside me says I need to take this opportunity. And I feel like I WANT to do it. But the "mom" side of me is ridden with guilt over putting my son in child care. I feel like I'm being selfish if I accept this position and put him in day care full time.
Are there any moms out there that have been through this? Did you go back to work? Did you stay home? Are you happy with the decision you made?
Thank you for your help and input...I am a very confused new mommy!