I just started bleeding tonight. I am so sad. If it was just blood I would be hanging on to hope, but it is thick, dark blood with clots and I checked my cervix and it is super soft, swollen and open. I have never felt it like that, but it certainly isn't the firm, hard cervix I had a couple weeks ago.
What bites is I know this baby has been growing. In just the last couple days I got that sensation that you can feel your uterus when I lightly leaned against counters and such, and I had strong pregnancy symptoms all day. Then tonight I felt a little gush and checked and saw blood.
I am upset and crying but know it hasn't even come close to really hitting me yet. This is pregnancy number six and my first miscarriage. I have been blessed, but boy does this hurt. Really wishing I hadn't told so many people. I was so excited and just felt so optimistic. We have been car shopping, and planning the bedroom and baby shopping, and maternity shopping. I want to scream!